Dark Tearz -

randomly typed

2009-06-12T10:50:00.002+08:00

I just thought of something but I couldn't figure out what was it..
I am trying my best to type all these in formal english.. hee =P

Quite some time since I wrote an entry in my blog.
Due to time inconvenience, I forgot about my blog totally.

Just some latest updates..

My 11 Month Anniversary with my Baby had a trip to Sentosa..
Woke up early in the morning..
Eventually thought of going a day trip to Batam, but guess we'll do it next time..
Sentosa first stop to take the Skyride & of course Luge !!
That was my second time..and really quite a long time since I went Sentosa..
Must make a habit to somehow relax there.

Next stop we took the beach tram.. till nowhere ahakz.
And we took a walk all the way just to find where the CineBlast was..
It was a new place.. just beside the 4D Magix..
We went for the Desperados.. and it was fun.. shooting on a saddle game.
Fun !

Later on.. went for dinner and headed home.

Mon headed for class after work and met up with Zany & Dee..
Chilled at the Esplanade and Baby's friends joined us later.
I was by then so sleepy that I almost dozed off on the bike..

This month..
Heard there's engagement & weddings..
Wow.. Suddenly I felt when's my turn.
Nah, don't rush.. Steady Fid.

Baby Ulya has grown up.. sooo cute..
That time, accompany her and her mummy to the clinic since she got bit of flu..
Always crying poor baby..
Love cuddling her.. and she always dozed off to sleep whenever I cuddled her up.

Gotta go now..
Play Facebook hee =)

To my B, a few more days to our 1 Year Anniversary ya.. =) Can't wait.

Love,
Dark Tearz

please force me to go to the gym..

2009-05-25T12:58:00.003+08:00

B.. I am sorry if at times I hurt ur feelings.. =(

Let's go gym tomorrow ya..
And let all the tense out.

And... I soo can't wait..

For my holi-holi day..

I juz need to release it all out..

Back to work.. =

Toodlez.

updates

2009-05-24T22:09:00.003+08:00

a little update.

me getting fatter.
Expressions calling me up asking when's my next appointment date cuz I've MIA-ed from the sessions.
And I've even yet to take up my BTT..
Dunnoe when also I will have a license..
Then suddenly I have totz of getting bike license..
Aiyoh dream lah fid.. kereta lum habis nak jump to bike.. or can i take both??
Shuckz.. one by one lah fid..

Tomorrow after work going for Customer Service Course sponsored by the company..
Tot got no exam..skali have lah..
Means there will be notes and back to study study..
Tomorrow's my first lesson pray it'll not be boring..
My two other colleagues Velu and Alia will be joining so i guess not so bad lah..

Booked flight tix the other day for our coming trip.. to Phuket ..
Yay!!! Will be flying on Aug right before puasa.
Hopefully everything will go smooth..
Cuz I really need this holiday badly..
No more far -far holidays after Phukz cuz nid to save for sumting better.

Tired from the managing the online biz at times ..but it sure comes the fun noeing customers are satisfied with our products..
I am sooo inspired to have my own label.. own brand and ..so much more..
Reminds me of Fundamental of Marketing in school..
It sure does help in managing the online biz..
Hopefully Beauty Desires can register the biz soon.. Prays hard.. Insya Allah..

Insya Allah from the money me and Bestie earned can help bit in terms of financial..
And Qisthina Ulya is juz so cute..
The other day she cannot sleep in her mummy's arms and end up in my arms..
Barulah nyenyak tido..
Amacam, fid dah leh jadi ibu ke...
Heee... at times I see babies around me.. I wish I will have one soon..
And of course with the Daddy DingDong..

I miss Rusydi too.
We dun have much time to spend .. more or less much more of after work's dinner ..
And accompanying him while doing delivery for my customers items..
We dun really have much time for leisure..
I really wanted to go Sentosa.. take the cable car like we were dating last time..
Bile la gaknyer eh..

Well gtg now.
I wanna sleep early.
Got to work tomorrow.

Ciaoz

a little recap on me so far...

2009-05-05T14:14:00.003+08:00

I know I know I know..

It's been long since I update at this dusty blog of mine..
Juz dun have the time laaa..
And I dun think anyone wud read my boring blog anymore..
I am thinking of cancelling this blog sumhow..
But mcm sayang lah.. cuz been years this blog was with me..
since my schooling days.. and loads of good and bad memories are all in here..

It's time to change my paths..
Lots of things to think about..
Money, Work, Biz, Love, Family..
At times I think I am too tired to even worry bout myself.
I dun usually get stressed up like this owaes..
But now I felt my body is juz to tired to absorb everything..
SOmetimes I wish everything was juz like last time..

Now whatever I spent I gotta remind myself not to spend so much..
Not to splurge my money on unwanted things..
But sumtimes it's juz so hard to control especially if u've not gone shopping for long..

Sumtimes I do wanna shop but when I reach town or saw the stuff I want.. I will cancel and walk away.. Rasa mcm sayang lak nak spend tu duit..
I think I've become more of a saver nowadays...

Haha.. but cant help it i still wana shop... online pon tkpe wakakaka..

I was worried bout Baby he had a little accident at PIE yesterday..
Fell off the bike pasal wanna avoid this bike JB plate..
It was raining and he was riding slow and this bike juz swerve in his lane..
My baby had to jambrake and he fell on his right side..
Haiz.. now kaki bengkak..
Syukur Alhamdulilah.. my baby's was not involved in any serious injuries.. Thank God..

But today he started work oredy.. dun think his leg is better yet but what to do.. keje tetap keje..
And he's werking with me.. Operations..
Seems okie.. =)

Well thats about now..
Till later ya..

=)

DUN DISTURB K

2009-04-11T15:34:00.000+08:00

PERIOD..

HAIZ

Hoping ...

2009-04-07T09:37:00.000+08:00

Nowadays..
Things changed alot for me..
I no longer think of going out alot..
I'm much better staying home and doing the business and I Bestie having now..

Besides I'm too tired to really go out..
But still I need to set aside time spend for my darling..
That's the only time I can really rest my mind.. but at times there are distractions.

I'm glad Baby is supportive with the online biz thing..
Alhamdulilah so far so good..
Must thank all the support from our customers..

And I cant wait for Baby Princess to come out.. Faster faster Mama & Papa DingDong ahahahha cant wait to see u.. The DingDongs refers to me & Baby..wakakaka.

And I'm so loving the palettes from the spree..
Color were gorgeous..
And next we'll be having the 120 Colors Palette.. wow dah mcm nk amek course makeup..

So those interested... to get one for yourself visit
Beauty Desires Online Shop now !!!
Especially all make-up lovers.. worth it.. 2 layers of 120 Colors in one palette.. Nice !!!
Hurry closing date will be 17th April..

So shop while u still can ya peepz.. !!!

Love,
Dark Tearz

Travel Size Authentic Mascaras FOR SALE!!

2009-04-05T19:31:00.006+08:00

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Sale Sale Sale !!!

2009-03-31T13:54:00.006+08:00

Elo frenz..

These are taken from Beauty Desires Online Shop..

We have stocks left for these.

1 pc each only .. Selling cheap.. Grab them fast..

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Toodles .. =)

very boring post ahakz

2009-03-22T14:57:00.000+08:00

i am nnow stranded at home.. yelpzzz..

but hehe nvrmind cuz i got my ipod touch now..kept on playing the games hehe..

both yesterday and today I was at home..
basically slacking and online 24/7 due to the customers request and enquiries..
i am so glad with the response.. thanks to those who supported our business..

my Baby's werking the nite shift today.. poor Baby..
nevermind work hard now..

actually I wanted to blog bout sumting but suddenly my mind went blank lah..

wellz.. i tink i need to start exercising .. cuz the flabs are getting obvious..
Baby said we'll hit the gym soon, but we c when la hor..
hehee..

well gotta go now.. =)

tadaaa!

phewwwwww~

2009-03-06T10:59:00.000+08:00

Phewwww ~

Been sumtime since I update..
Am so tired from the sprees going on.. but it was worth the effort..
I hope all goes well.
Prays hard..

Went out for dinner at Pizza Hut with Baby last nite..
And ended up caught in the rain last nite.. it was very heavy so I took a cab home..

KL trip last weekend was fun..
Pics to be uploaded soon..

So where to next??? Bali?? Bangkok?? Batam??..
We'll see..

I do miss my frens but too bad I dun even have much time for myself..
So sorry ya frenz if I've MIA-ed from you guys..

And for those who havent visit Beauty Desires here's the add..
http://www.beautydesires.multiply.com/

Gtg.. =)

miss me or not?

2009-02-21T04:11:00.000+08:00

got miss me???

well, sorry for the lack of updates..
been tight with werk.. handling two jobs now..
i hope it'll be a success..
Cant wait fer everything to be ready and start.

Everything's been great for me juz dat I dun hav much sleep.
And I cant wait to see my Baby today..

Can I have a massage??? *winkz*

busssssseyyyyy

2009-02-19T03:59:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was a busy day for me..
I was packed with my customer service duty & also my admin duties.
And there was audit goin on.. ohh myy...

I didnt even have time to surf the net..
Sianz.

Aniwaes.. finally got my passport ready..
And managed to meet up with Baby on Tues.. he accompanied me to ICA due to me blur blur lah..
Hehe nak amek photo pon kanchiong.. lolz.

Met Bestie yesterday for the preparations.. I hope it work out ya beb. Cant wait.
Chilled at Vivo Starbucks..
Only managed to talk with Baby at 4am.. aiyoh..
He woke me up from my sleep to talk to me.. Miss those times..
Before we were a couple we used to talk to each other on the phone at wee hrs in the morning.
Hehe terimbas kenangan manis... =)

Lurpp him so much.

Soon, I'll be a busy woman... *winkz @ Bestie*

mouuuuuundayyyy..

2009-02-16T05:03:00.000+08:00

God is testing me..
I noe He is..
I noe He is testing if I can go thru all this sebagai umatNya..

I noe I've not accomplished the duties as a rightful Muslim.. for a long time..
And some things reminded me to be thankful for what I am now.

Nvm..
Juz my thought for today..

What a Monday..

I had a decent celebration with Baby last Sat.. Chill went out to East Coast at nite..
And headed home after dat..
Sun, was with Yat & Zany at Esplanade & Beach Rd..

Now.. the bike is down again.. =( haiz.

watever happens, I'll be by ur side..

2009-02-14T04:34:00.000+08:00

This month is not a good month..

Watever happens, I leave it to God..
Evil shall not be replied with evil..
Dun play fire with fire..

Sabar separuh dari Iman...

That theft .. really was a loss..
But think back.. we're still lucky..

So much in my head now..
So many plans ahead.
The time to think of earning more money..
The time for education.. maybe continuing my Diploma at PSB Academy .. insya Allah
After all debts cleared..
Stress or no stress.. I juz gotta get a Diploma..
Cuz my years of werking & experience... wont get recognized at all by companies nowadays..
They juz need to see that cert and they'll give u the right pay..

Managed to sit down at Bt Pjg Library last nite..
and found alot of book on scrapbooks..
I spent an hour or two.. getting some more ideas..
After such a long time not borrowing any books from the library.. I finally borrowed two..
Before heading to the carpark to see the guys do the new suspension..
Tungkus lumus..
And the bike ok juz dat cannot start.. haiyahz..

Today, Valentine's Day huh..
Not celebrating but..
But I wish all of them out there a Happy Valentines Day...

Still when I look at Baby's face..
I can see that he is still sad over wat happened..
But smuanye ade hikmah di sebaliknyer...
Insya Allah.. Amin.

cry.my.tearz.out.

2009-02-12T11:53:00.000+08:00

Really not my day today..
I dun wanna say much.

It hurts to the core.
It hurts.

Fuck lahh..

I need to go on hiatus..
Its really not my day..
Or maybe week..

='(

all I wanna do..

2009-02-11T08:44:00.000+08:00

W E D N E S D A Y ....

I am finally done.. And I was all smiley about it..
Done out of my own hands..
The Scrappy fer Baby is done..
Now I really hope he'll like it..

Meeting him later..
I really have to thank him fer helping me send the Passport application for me..
Cuz they close at 5pm haiz..
Lucky got my darling..

I dunno what I shud do today..
I have some plans on my head fer me and him..
But... dunno if we'll accomplish it..

I'll post the picz tomorrow..
Gotta go .. lots to do now..

Toodlez..

baby..

2009-02-10T08:36:00.000+08:00

The scrappy is finally gonna finish..
Juz one more..
My bf is still clueless on how the scrappy looks like..
But I hope he likes it..

I've nvr done scrapbooks before... thanks to Fatin dearie for sharing some ideas..
Never thought I'd really indulge my time in this..
Penat2 pon I still do it..

Not tat I'm doing this for Valentine or wat lah... I dun even celebrate Valentine's..
It's juz sumthing that came up and I felt like doing..
Actually there's more..
But nah... try the smaller ones first...

Btw, I'd like to say I miss my Baby..
Yesterday and today he's been werking the nite shift..
Poor baby..

My mum once asked me "Kak y u kol ur bf Baby?? Kan dah besar.."
Hehe. =) Otak blank gak..
Even my little sis disturb me bout that..
Becoz the very first time I met him on our very first date..
He look so baby-faced...
Cineleisure.. where we met.. and slept while watching Narnia movie....lolz.
And his red color spark.. worst he left his keys on the bike without no one noticing..
Heh =)

Haiz I can still recall.. dua-dua malu kucing.. =0

I miss u Rusydi darling..

weekend with the love..

2009-02-09T05:41:00.000+08:00

My weekend went well..
First off.. Friday nite..
From office.. it was raining okie.. and my sweet Baby had to wear for me his raincoat..
=)

Headed to S'pore Expo.. with an excited heart..
To catch the Nike Expo Sale.. but to our disappointment..
It closes at 7pm..
And we reached at 6.30..
Due to waste of time finding which hall the sale was.. by the time sale dabis..
Haiz.. dapat tahu...we went to the wrong hall.. instead of Hall 6A we went to Hall 1.. lol..

Hall 1 was so dark... wakakaka.
Tapi tkpelah.. ingat ada Adidas selling there.. its okie..
Cuz we managed to drop by airport..
Had dinner at the Canteen there..
Pasta Halal...hehe.

Then Baby received a call.. One of his fren involved in an accident..
After eating, we zoomed all the way to NUH to visit his fren..
Met up with the babes.. happy to see them.
Supper at Bendemeer...
And head off home..

The next day..
Went to town to get my sister her bday present..
Glad that she like the bag..
Wanted to find my scrappy stuff but we end up chilling at Coffee Bean..
Headed home early as Baby's werking the morning shift the next day..

Sunday.. spent time at home finishing up my scrappy stuffz..
Almost done..
Left to put the picz.. to my disappointment.. went to JP to develop pics but the machines had long queues of banglas..
Lolz..
Sorang cuci gambar je berejam.
Gave up and bought my other stuffs at Popular instead..

Now in the office.. kinda sleepy but in the ok-ok mood..

Today I feel like going to get my scrappy stuffz again..
Anyone wanna accompany me????
=)

scrapz and modelling..

2009-02-06T06:51:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was a loner shopping fer myself..
Headed town after work.. strate to Kino Taka..
But as I was walking towards Taka..a gerl stopped me and said i was spotted to join their model agency.
When I checked the card she gave me it was "I-Model Agency" ..
I thought they no longer spot talents on the streets.. Used to being spotted alot during my ITE days..
But then can't the gerl see I'm litte bit oversize now to be a model..
I've went to their office before when I was spotted last time..
But the thing is nothing is FREE.. gotta pay fer the folio fees..
Lolz.
If they call me again, I dunno if I wana go or not..
Haha..

Bought Eclipse & Breaking Dawn.. the last two saga for Twilight..
Juz couldnt miss it..

Then next to Art Friend to get stuffs for my scrapbooking..
Hehe.. And to the Creative Art store juz next to it..
I was soo satisfied with the service there..
The malay gerl there was very helpful giving me ideas noeing that its my first time doing scrapbooks.. I forgot to check her name..
I was surprised a very rugged looking gerl but polite and helpful..
I am sure to go there again...
Cuz I think I nid sumore stuffz..
I hope it turns out nice.. =)

And then off home.. strate away I layout everything and puts bits and pieces..
Hehe..
I hope the person I'm gonna give this thing too will love it.. =P

And I was looking at Diyanah's makeover pics..
It reminded me of my makeover with Bestie ..
Was looking back on it..
And I realise I was quite slimmer than now..
OHhhhhhhh NOOOOooooooooooooooo!!!

Here's the pic..

hehehe and bestie was slimmer too.. heheheheheheh...

gotta go..

pretttttttt...

2009-02-05T04:19:00.000+08:00

Yesterday wasnt a gud day for me..
My morning in the office wasnt healthy..
Instead of doing my paperwork, I was more stuck in the toilet..
I had a sudden diarrhea and worst i vomitted whatever I ate..
Tak bley tahan.. so halfway went to poly to get checked ..

And guess what.. the doc pressed hard on my right abdomen..
And gosh it was bloody painful daaa..
The worried part was.. if pain is ongoing..
I might have appendict.. Oh noo...

And boy am I worried...
And doc advised me to go for a check at the nearest hospital.. A&E sumore..
Seram la.. the thought of the hospital bills juz dun make me wanna go..

Baby was also sick.. and he went to his company doc after i took my medicine..
the most kecoh clinic.. aiyoh ..

Had hot tea before we both went home..

And Im very sorry I cudnt meet my frenz..
Will make up the next time..

Till later.. Am so sleepy now.. I wana go buy my novels today Eclipse and Breaking Dawn..
I realised Kino is selling much cheaper than Borders..
Hehe..
Book worm..

I've still gotta go for practise lessons for my theory..
Haiz.

I Want You...

2009-01-30T06:13:00.000+08:00

Ohhhh can I juz please have you..
Yes you darling ...
Cuz you're ohhh soooo nice and ur butt so curvy.. hehe.

*whatareyouthinkin????*

Yes you Hyundai i30... ur soooo curvy.. i loike laaa !!!

I noe I berangan alot..
Im gonna make sure I pass my class 3..
Discipline.. !!!

Insya Allah... =)

Happie 7 Mths Baby..

2009-01-29T04:29:00.000+08:00

The long weekends are over..
For me, I extended another day..which is yesterday..
By rite, yest was the start of my working day.. but u noe la.. i was so tired..
So I took leave lah.. mampos.. potong ajela gajiku lagi..

Aniwaes.. hoped u peepz enjoyed the long weekends ya..
Mine was mostly rotting at home and only went out on Tues..
Spent time with Baby..
Carls Jr, Sakae Sushi, chillout with frenz at Clarke Quay..
Watching the G-max swing up and down..
Wakkakakaaa.. And our fellow dude who kept on saying "Whhhattttt!" with the Ali-G tone.. ekekeke.. Hilarious.. !!

Went home ard 1am.. tired..shagged..
And the next day dinner cum 7ths Anniversary with Baby at Manhattan Fishmarket PS,,
Cannot finish sia the platter.. hehehehe..
Baby was all jakon bout the food.. hehe =P

And Happy 7mth Anniversary to us...
Finally today.. =)
Love my Baby... sooo mwuchh..
And we had a talk last nite.. reminiscing our very first date.. our first kiss and the day I accepted him in my life..
I noe its only 7mths but thruout the journey.. it meant alot to me..
Tears of joy and sadness.. and how I cud relate to him so much..
Brings back the real person in me..
Finally.. I love you deep down.. and I mean it..
*teary*

Have a gd day peeps..
Another weekend is coming.. !

Hurray.

marvellous..

2009-01-23T06:13:00.000+08:00

*yawnz*

Am I supposed to be in bed today or wat??? Hehz =P
Today is juz soooo Holiday mood seh..
Juz cant wait to wake up late..
But poor Baby he gotta work tomorrow till Mon..

And yes.. it's finally Fryyyy Dayyyy... !!
And it feels so great not having to werk tomorrow..

Yesterday met Baby after work..We didnt noe where to go so we went to Penin.. had dinner and met up with his cuzie..
Listened to music and chilled off at Suntec..
On the way to Suntec I bought thissssss totally nice ice cream cake kinda thing..
It was sooooooooooo nice..
Didnt get to take pic of it.. but it was really really nice.
It's at Marvellous Cream, Citylink.. Flavor = European Caramel Custard..
I'd love to go there again and try the Belgium Choc.. it look so chocolatey..

Chilled on a bit with the guys.. talk and talk and talk until I got so sleepy.. ahakz.
Today.. meet him again..

Hmm.. I feel like getting a part-time job..
Is there any jobs available.. like "paid to read" ??? hehe if there is rite? I'll take it full-time..
Ur job is to read the novels provided.. wakakakak...

Hmm... gonna surf the net .. today.. MOGOK TANAK KEJE... haha..

Toodlez

dance, dance, dance..

2009-01-22T11:23:00.000+08:00

I feel like dancing to this song...

Kat De Luna - In The End..

HeHe... =P

mushiee..

2009-01-21T09:47:00.000+08:00

If my Baby is readin this..
I wud juz like him to noe this..

Taken from: Ne-Yo - Mad lyrics

Oh baby this love ain't gon be perfect.
(Perfect, perfect, ohh ohh)
And just how good it's gonna be
We can fuss and we can fight
Long as everythings all right between us...
Before we go to sleep.

Even at times wen both of us were down..
And fought like nobody's business..
And we both get mad over nothing..
Both cry together..
Juz remember.. I will always love u, Rusydi..
My everything..

Suddenly I am being so mushiee huh..
I juz miss him..
He's soundly asleep..
And he sleeps like a baby.. tat's why I call him Baby..

Wakaka.. ape aku mepek ni..

the sweetest him..

2009-01-21T05:12:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was payday..
Managed to shop abit with my colleague..
Chilled bit with our choco drinks at McCafe..

Only bought 2 tops and pair of shoes ..
Not much lah I can shop fer this pay..
Juz waiting fer my Bo Bo Bo ... *winkz at Fatin*

Cant wait for tomorrow too.. Yay get to meet Baby finally..
He came all the way here juz now after his night shift and bought me breakfast..
So swittt of him..
But I'll eat it for lunch.. save my money bit.. =)
Misssssssed him shoooooooooooooooooo muchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.. =(

I love u Baby..
Muackz.

make me smile..

2009-01-19T06:00:00.000+08:00

Blues Blues Blues..
Feeling so tired after a great weekend passed..

Nowadays, dunno what to update also in my blog.. kekeke.
Weekend was spent with Baby..
Mostly go eat.. walk around eyeing on stufzz.
But yesterday.. we both caught Ong Bak 2.. one part of the show I surprisingly cried..
But the main actor of the movie really did his stunts by himself.. and I loike the scenes..

For me this is the kind of action movie I like to watch.. Less talk, more action..

And I managed to get the sequel book to Twilight since I finished reading Twilight novel..
I am sooo glued to the novel.. Bought "New Moon" to get the next update on Edward & Bella..

Spent the night at the Esplanade.. juz to get some nice cool breezy air..
We juz didnt want the night to end.
Haiz, we both gotta work today.. Cian Baby.. kene bangun awal..

And soooo I cant wait fer the holidays..
I juz wana laze around sleeping.. Can or not???

I'm sooo tired... I juz wanna go home..
Fullstop.

Ducky Ducky

2009-01-13T04:39:00.000+08:00

Good Morning.

I would just like to share with you guys my morning experience on the bike today with my dad..
As per normal every morning he sends me off to work..
He was turning left to West Coast Hgway..
Skali he say "Kak! Kak!! Itik kak !!"
Hahah then I look out to the front to see a big lorry from JB carrying flocks of duckz... hehehe
And the feather's were flying wakakaka.. Bau tk bley angz..

Nasib baik itik seh not pig wakkaakakak..

Well... hehe that's wat I wanted to share lah..wakaka..
Out of topic lah to blog..

And I would like to declare myself broke.. =(

I wanna go out with my frenz again... =)

Bye.

weekend mania..

2009-01-12T06:06:00.000+08:00

I had a blast last weekend..
I thought it'll be boring and stucked at home but instead.. I enjoyed myself..

My cuzin's wedding at Lagun Sari.. Selamat Pengantin Baru to Zulkarnain & Nur Fitri (if im not wrong).. pretty bride.. but unfortunately didnt bring along my camera..
There was also Kak Ida's wedding which I cudnt make it..
Selamat Pengantin Baru Kak Hidayah & Prince hehe. Apologies as I cudnt make it to ur wedding..

Went to Lagun Sari with my aunt's family.. tumpang uncle roslan's car..
See him drive I cudnt wait fer my turn lah.. =)
Saw my cuzins... Iyliee and her siblings.. wahh all so grown up oredy..
And alahai my darling Rohit Armani was there too my baby boy.. soo cute.. geramz aku.

After the wedding, I headed home.. and I think I fell asleep early..
Baby had to werk the night shift for both Sat & Sun.. Poor him but work is still work..

Sun came, and I woke up so late.. juz in time to shower and get myself ready to meet Fatin & Alia..
3 of us attending Faizal's engagement..
Food yummy.. kuehz yummy..
Heehee we came late so we only saw Junid & wife & Sundram..
I think the rest came early..

Pics taken..

After the engagement 3 of us went our separate ways..
Me heading to Bugis to meet Bestie & Nad..
We had donuts at JCo..
And got myself sandals and my long awaiting Twilight novel..
I heard alot of fans were unhappy with the changes in the book.. dunnolah..
I havent even watch the movie but from what I read.. I noe i wont regret..

Then we headed off to Lau Pasat for Satay..
Sedap sungguh..
Heehee.. =)

The night went well and catch up on lates updates with Bestie..

Hope to have more outings with u gerls again..
=)

Lots of Love,
Dark Tearz

no more..

2009-01-05T04:33:00.000+08:00

Whattt ???!!! It's Monday already ??? And to top it off.. The money is still not in yet..
I was juz about to have the retail mood.. urgghh..

But bills comes first yah.. =|

Lately..
I wasnt myself..
There juz had to be tiffz between me and Baby..
But Alhamdulilah.. it ended within a day..
We both juz cant stand long arguments..

But we're ok now.. Normal lah fer us.. tak gado tak sah.. lolz.

I managed to buy some stuffz fer myself on that Saturday...
with the sale going on how cud I resist..
Bought 2 tops fer myself. and perfume.. at a good bargain.. hehe..
That was all..
Importantly, I get to spend time with him.. Initially we both were supposed to chill at Sentosa..
But then it was already late afternoon.. So we juz headed to town.

Haha, I tink I saw Fauzi Laily at Cotton On Wisma.. Standing in the middle of the busy shoppers with his shades on.. ahah.

Biler lah aku nak bertembung ngn Taufik nie..
Hehe nvm, waiting fer Kak Ida's wedding.. hehe mesti Abg Taufik ade kan wekekek.
Thanks kakak fer the invitation.. I love the card alot.... =) veri nice..

Aniwaes.. I really need to go out today after werk.. juz to rest my mind..
Haish..

Wat a monday !

sleepin on new year..

2009-01-01T15:20:00.000+08:00

Wow, great to read on some of my peeps new year's celebration...
GUeess wat??!!
I fell asleep when clock striked 12..
I was only awoken at 12.15am..

But hence, Happy New Year everyone..

Errrr tomorrow have to drag myself to werk.. =(

Sayonara 2008, Bonjour 2009

2008-12-31T04:24:00.000+08:00

Well in a few hours time.. 2009 will arive ..
Hope to have a better year ahead..

2008 was full of ups and downs ..
The year which taught me alot of lessons in life..
From family, relationships to friendships..
Work issues.. money issues..
Everything comes in one place..

2009 to come I hope to achieve more things..
I hope to be someone better.
And of course cherished with everlasting love with my Baby..

Its so hard to tell whether its gonna be a good year ahead or not with the recession around us..
Recession or not, u still see people splurged their money on luxuries..
And u still see people travelling..
But maybe they had their own savings..

And for sure yeah I hope to travel with Baby again..
Hehe.. And need to save up alot on dat..

So where the PARTY atttt?????
Me ? Party? Errrr, nah will be staying home.. urghh..
Coz Baby gotta werk the nite shift..
Cianz dier must work..

Its okie.. for me to stay home ..
Maybe I need the rest after all..

But no HALFDAY seh today.. !!!!
Damnit !!
My dad's company today holiday sia..
Aiyohz....

Well.. juz have to endure few more hours..

Aniwaes,

Before I go.. Happy New Year to all of you out there.
Enjoy the PARTY !!!

pleeesssshhh

2008-12-30T08:34:00.000+08:00

I wanna go home..

=(

Boo hoo..

chores chores chores..

2008-12-29T06:59:00.000+08:00

lately..
I've been sort of like the domestic lady in the house hehe.
Yeah helped him with chores..
And it was a great relieve..

Spent time alot with him.. these past few days.. =)

Juz a recap..
on the eve of Xmas.. for the first time I played bowling..
and it was terrorizing..
I tell you the rest of the gerls scored alot while I was stuck with ZEROs..
Peh malu..=|
Kinda sad on dat but felt great get to meet the babes again..
Last stop supper at Mas Ayu..

On Xmas itself.. accompanied Baby to his company doctor.. since he fell sick..
Kecian dier..

On the Friday.. it was my turn to fall sick..

Sat had fun taking pics during the NSRS cert thingy..
And the food yummy..

Sat after helping out with Baby.. before he goes to work.. I made my way home..

Sun went out with Baby, Yat and his partner ..
Watched Bedtime Stories .. a touching comedy..
must watch.. cute lah the guinea pig.. kekekeke.
Dinner at Beach Rd and last stop to the Marina Barrage..
First time been there so jakonz abit.. hehehe..
But nice lah the scenery..
Pics up soon.. kekekeke.. =)

Okielah lost for words now..

hehe..

Today is a special day fer me and Baby..
Today marks our 6ths Anniversary.. 6 mths of being together..
How time flies so fast..
Love u sayang..

That's about it.. Cant wait to see him later..

my edit

2008-12-24T11:23:00.000+08:00

I edited this in the office during my free hour ..
Hehee..

Shhh jgn bilang olang.. hor.

=) Bye..

snobby woman..

2008-12-24T11:15:00.000+08:00

I just have something to rant on..
It all happened this morning on the way to work..

I went to work a bit late due to the rain.. and cannot wake up.. boohoo..
Hence, I still made myself to work..
And I called for a cab cuz the queue's were kinda long..
I waited not more than 5 minutes and my cab came...
And I was standing near the taxi stand queue at JP..

The woman in queue suddenly step forward to the cab I was waiting for and was about to reach for the door. I was also almost to the door.
The woman gave me a snobbish look.. the look which says "What do u think you're doing?"
I juz gave her a stare and a smile..
and said " Sorry, Miss but this cab is mine, its "ON-CALL".

I was expecting the lady to say "Sorry" at least fer her own pai-sehness..
But instead she make it seem as if she's right and I'm the one cutting queue..

Haha puh-leeze lah.. think I AM so kanchiong like u ppl ar??
D'uh.. =|

Look at the cab's sign lah whether on-call or not.. and plz think first lah..
If i'm not in the queue do u think I wud even cut ur line..
Haha.

Instead of saying Sorry .. the lady said "OHhhh On-Call ar??? Haiyoh take lar take lar..!!"
WTH??!!
Got an answer from a nicely dressed lady.. errr..
Pity you miss.. I think you gotta read books on courtesy lah..

Wat a day..
Everione's having that lucky half day but I'm not.. urgh.
And the weather juz brings me to sleep..
And I'm trying my very best to stay awake to the next hour..
Eating Twisties, Toblerone chocz..
Ooppz.. My butt's gonna get bigger seh..

=)
Got a surprise fer my Baby later.

Okielah ..
Before I say Bye..
Hope u enjoy ur holidays peeps and a Merry Merry Xmas to all of you...

Take Care dun Take Drugs..
If you're clubbing or partying.. dun DRINK too much....
And dun DRINK & DRIVE..

=) Enjoy ~~~

wats fer lunchie??

2008-12-23T05:57:00.000+08:00

I wud like to say that I juz cant wait fer the public holiday..
Cuz I get to wake up late.. Yay!!

Errr town is to be avoided during this xmas.. confirm 'pek kodok' nyer.. lolz.
So best to stay home kekeke..
But I noe my legs wud itch to go out..

I must say.. Why Why Why we dun have half day on Xmas Eve..
Urghghghg.. Stupid operations.. =(

So tomorrow I'll be stuck in the office whole day.. shuckz!!!!!

Anyone yang senasib dgn aku ??? =(

K now i feel moody.. see lah the clouds dark oredy..

Errmmmm what's fer lunchie...??? =P

Toodlez..

weekend spending..

2008-12-22T05:46:00.000+08:00

The clouds are soo pretty today..
and I am trying my very best not to feel today's a Monday.. if not it'll ruin everything..
The weather is juz so perfect till I cudnt bring myself to wake up in the morning..
If only yeahhh I'm not working and I can stay home and sleep all day..

December the month where peepz mostly will be on leave but I dun think I'll be taking any leaves.. Juz depending on the public holidays available.
I guess I am spending Xmas at home with the family.
I dun have any plans to go out at all..
And BaBy will be working on the day itself..
Aniwae I think I'm better off at home also, so dat I dun spend .. kekeke...

Hehe the gift exchange is on.. hehehehe hush hush..
Wondering who'll be getting me a gift .. cant wait.

what I got fer my weekend..
I got myself my frenship back..
I am sooo happy to get to meet my crazy and lovable frens.. Fara, Shah and Shidah..
Tho Akbar cudnt make it..
We were almost Full House.. =(
But hence dinner at DeliFrance was crazy and not forgetting the camwhoring sessions with them..
Pics in my camera la havent load..
Lolz.

And hehe finally got that bag from Charles n Keith.. I dun care if alot of ladies using that bag..
What I care most is I love the bag and the color..
Me and Fara got ourselves pumps at a good bargain too..

Fara, we should do this more often.. meetups and ShoPPing..
But haiz cannot shop alot la babe.. =)

I still yet to meet my Bestie.. whom getting rounder now kekeke.
Baby gerl also becoming more nottie huh.. kick mummy's tummy.. ahakz.
Bestie.. tell me when ur free yah.. =)

Last nite gotta meet my Baby fer awhile..
Dropped by BP.. and off we headed to King Albert Park's McDonalds..
got my Double Cheeseburger.. cuz I dreamt of it.. hehehe.ll
Hehe spend time talking..
Next we headed off to JP new NTUC Fairprice Xtra as it is opened 24hrs..
Ala-ala Mustafa Ctr lolz..
Okielah not bad.. dah mcm Giant.. got some cool bargains.
And wat he bought was.. a pair of new toothbrush and toothpaste..
That reminds me I need to change my toothbrush too..
hehe.. =)
And yeah plz somebody pull me to the Dentist.. so scared lah...

Maybe try to get an appointment today.. =)
Fatin.. teman bole?? kekeke..
Baby will be soo happy I'm finally going to the Dentist kekekek.
Hope it'll be fun.

Well, I guess that's about it..
I am so pissed off at my company mail..
Haiyohz susah seh wanna do werk..

Okielah I guess I'll stop here for now..

Till my next entry yah.. =)
ToodLezz..

misshingg euuu

2008-12-20T08:25:00.000+08:00

i am missing Baby already..
he'll be starting his 12hrs shift today..
kecian dier kene werk pagy..
it'll be hard to spend tym but these are some of the sacrifices we both have to make.

Wana wish to sweetie Nani on her engagement today..
Selamat Bertunang Nani and Hassan..
but I cudnt make it to the engagement cuz Baby's werking..

Haiz..
I miss my Baby badly..
And I still havent catch Twilight..

Gotta go..

need to shop lah..

2008-12-19T04:43:00.000+08:00

GoooooDDD MurrrNNNinGGGG EveryOnEEE !!!

Friday !! Hell Yeah..
The moody moody mood is gone..
But kinda tired lah..
Hehe.. my mood gone cuz Baby made my day..
I dunno why but he's showing more concern and soft side to me yesterday..
Cuz he noes I'm in a grumpy mood.. and I need to be talked to nicely..

Dats what make me love my Baby so much..

One of my fren is getting engaged tomorrow but I'm not sure if i can make it or not..
Cuz Baby's werking till 7..
Will see how it goes..
So happy fer Nani.. =)
One of the Monyet's lak tu.. kekekeke..
Smoga nanti kekal sampai ke jinjang pelamin ..

I'm giving myself a year..
Then insya Allah will be my turn.. =) Ceh..
But ya trying our very best..cuz its not so easy ....

I need to shop shop fer my necessities..

1) Two Way Cake Foundation
2) Perfume
3) Bag
4) Pair of pumps
5) Ripples slippers.
6) Wallet

Only dat fer now.. hehe.. Saving babe..

But hmmm... i might need a new MP3..
Cuz I dun wana put so much stuffs in my hp, even tho got space of 8gb..
Soo ermmmm anyone kind enuff to spare me an mp3.. fer a Xmas gift?? tee hee =P

Gtg .. better do some work.
Tata.

shuckz lahhh

2008-12-18T05:08:00.000+08:00

urgh...
Ms P came to visit me this morning..
the feeling juz argghghhgghghg..

now my head hurts, tummy hurts,, and I might juz be grumpy soon.

after settling some stuffz yesterday.. I managed to meet Baby..
Cianz dier.. sampai salah roster..

Hmm.. I do have so much to blog about .. but I think I juz pass for now.

Today's my uncle apiz b'day..
Tomorrow will be his sis bday...
Happy bday to the both of them.. =)

Now, I juz feel like lying down and rest my tummy.. =(

superwoman..

2008-12-16T06:11:00.000+08:00

You can call me superwoman if you want to..
Cuz I am doing 2 different job scopes at the same time..

With other loads of paperwork to be completed, I am given another set of things to think about.
And what the heck.. what do I get for doing all these??

Nothing .. no appreciation.. or even a pay hike..
And what are the company appraisals for?
To deduct is someone's late / or on leave regularly..
But not recognizing the fact that some people even if they do come late for work.. they can actually really do work..
So what the hell are appraisals for. Duh.

Well.. sorry but im juz stating facts.
Some things are juz not appreciated.

Had the chance to meet Baby last nite.
Had dinner at Tong Seng and it was bloody packed.
Moved about at Bugis fer awhile before heading back home.
We were worried bout the rain so we juz decide to ride home before it rains again.
At least I manage to relieve me "missing him soooo much" even fer a short while.
His hugs were the best thing ever..
I cud juz cry by his shoulders fer hours ..

And I soo miss him already.

my belated surprise..

2008-12-03T05:23:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was a verrrryyyy shaggy day fer me..
Go to werk with no makeup at all.. and horrible eyebags..
My gosh.. the day was juz not my day..
Not enuff sleep to end it all..

But but BUT...
I was freaking surprised after lunch..
My colleague Alia together with the rest surprised me with a delicious yummeh choc cake..
With a 1 year old candle hehehe .. Yeah.. FidaH juz turn 1 year old.. kekeke.
I was touched lah.. thanks to all of you for the bday surprise..
Seldom get these kind of surprises..

THank You.. my Dear Colleagues.. .=)

After work, headed to BP.. to meet my darling switheart..
Also met Iqah n Khai.. had coffee..
And thanks so much for the bday gift from her..
Love it.. and i do need it ..kekee.

Overall..
My day ended with a hug from my baby.. =)
Which brings tears..
I love him so much..
God I am so lucky to have him by my side..
Amin..

Happy Belated Bday to me =)

2008-12-01T09:54:00.000+08:00

proudly 23 now..
feel so old.
not much of a celebration I had..
but I enjoyed my Sat..
Darling sis Huda gave me a surprise..hee =) so swit of her..
Thanks to the swit couple..

The nite after that meet up with Baby's frenz..
till the morning..
Supper at Simpang Bedok.. but by the time I was oredy exhausted and blardy sleepy..
Imagine me dozing off a few times on the bike.. ish sempat mimpi seh..

Overall, I had a decent bday..
Thanks to Baby for spending time with me on my bday..
I appreciate it so much.. and the heart-to-heart talk with you..
Makes me love you more.. =)

P/S: I'm too old fer gifts.. =(

money-less..

2008-11-28T12:02:00.000+08:00

10 more mins to go !!!
Yeah countdown..
Cant wait to open up the present i got from Veolia..
HeHe.
It's actually a prize I did fer some Safety Quiz..
Me, Fatin & Leo won DVD players.. 3 jokers.. kekeke.

So now I've gotta carry it home..
And due to my carelessness.. my purse dropped inside Baby's bag..
And I only realise I was money-less when me and colleagues bout to go for lunch.
Haiyoz..
Now I've gotta go strate home.. since Baby cant pass me my purse now..

Well..
Gotta werk tomorrow.. urghh..
Hopefully get to go the National Bikers Weekend at the Spore Flyer..
And maybe meeting one of my dear ones.. =)

Till then..

this cud be it..

2008-11-28T05:43:00.000+08:00

I am sorry if I've ever hurt anyone in particular..
Thruout my 23 years of living..

To my family, I love u all..
To my dearest frenz, I love u all..
To my colleagues, I treasure the times..

To people I noe in the Internet.. good or bad..
It was an experience noeing u all..

=)
Hope my Friday turns out good.
Friday has always been a happy day for me.
A day which I always look forward to..

If there's no planz today, I wud juz love to sit by the beach alone at nite and juz feel the moments..
That's what I really wanna do..
I really wanna have some peace..

And yeah, I am not okay..

Till then.

killing time softly..

2008-11-27T13:10:00.000+08:00

while waiting for my Baby to fetch me..
I shall juz blog my time away juz to kill time..
I am very tired lah today..

he's gonna reach here in 5 min time..

I am very worried for Bestie.. hope everything's alrite fer her..

ohhh my suddenly now my mind blank.. ishh

Arrghh i need to eat dinner ... hungry laaa deyy..

=)

down down down..

2008-11-27T06:28:00.000+08:00

I am so shagged...

I really had a long day..
Had satay fer dinner.. lama tak makan.. hehe alamak susuk jatuh lah keke.

Well, I really need a holiday but not enuff income to do all these..
But I really need one.
A short one wud be gud..
Sentosa pon ok lah..

Haiz..

Juz 4 more days to a day that is juz the same as any day.. =)
Not really looking forward to it.
Worst, it falls on a Mon.. And I gotta werk. Haiz.

Bye.

pump pump it up..

2008-11-26T11:03:00.000+08:00

Went for CPR session hold by the S'pore Heart Foundation..
At least learnt something.. how to pump the correct way..
Hehe..
Good lah at least in times of emergency..

Had an 'okie-okie' day today..
Will be meeting Baby later.. 2 days tak meet dah mcm 2 mths lolz.
Gotta go fer an appointment later.. Hope its gud fer me.

Had Sakae Sushi the night before with Bestie.. Chill abit and then went home.
Hehe heard she's gonna get a girl.. Hehe so happy fer Bestie..
=)

And listen up peepz..
If you're a Malay Novel lover.. I will soon be selling off my novels collection.}
It's 2nd hand but still in good condition.
And I'm selling it at a very good price.
Will put up soon.

And maybe more to come..like figurines.. =)

Cant wait to see my Baby =)

lowest peak..

2008-11-25T03:12:00.000+08:00

regardless to my prev entry..
due to my own clumsiness..
or is my fingers too big fer the keyboards oredy.. ahakz.

I was typing a long entry..
But then all gone..
Trying to recap everything here..

I was at my lowest these past few days..
And the only person I cud really open up to is Baby..
Tho he at times became my victim of moody swings, he still there to give me a hug & comfort.
Thanks alot Baby..

I am already feeling the recession heat on me..
And it's really heavy.. I really meant heavy.
Money wont stick with me like glue anymore.
Money will juz disappear so fast from my hands..
Everything need money now.

But I noe, sumhow we'll manage everything.

I still have time.

Last Sat, had an outing with the Uncensored guys and babes..
Went to Siti's bro engagement.. And then headed to the chalet..
Some picz taken but not much..
First time meeting Baby's cuzin gf.. Diyanah..
Sweet gerl..
Reached home like 5am in the morning..

Sunday was spent sleepin in the afternoon..
While waiting fer Baby to come home from the escorts, I had a good rest.
We both headed to Penin to get my gym shoes.. unfortunately it rained and we had to stop under a flyover before continueing our journey..
Had dinner at Komalas.. pehh panjang paper dosai aku ahahah and his Bhaturra is much bigger than his head.. Lol.

Well today, some director gonna come to my office..
And as per normal.. the kanchiong-ness in the office is starting to piss me off.
And yeah, I'm covering duty for customer service ..
Have to sit infront counter.. urghh bored la.. Sleepy tau.

bye fer now.

pooff

2008-11-24T19:05:00.000+08:00

fuck shit.

ive typed everything and my idiot finger taps on the wrong button..

poof.. everything gone !

I think I better go to sleep.

period.

nytez.

friday huh??

2008-11-21T06:17:00.000+08:00

its Fri Fri Fri FriesDay..
Lolz.

Lame!

And I am so feeling the weekend mood.
Maybe heading to gym on the wkends..
Since we cant think of any other activities to do. hur hur..

Tomorrow my off day. Yay!!!!
Sleep can wake up late.
Especially since "it" came today..
I feel the pain bebeh.. arggh !
Juz feel like lying down and sleep ..

1 more hour to lunch.
I tink I'll take a nap. =0

Hee.

To Everyone..

2008-11-21T03:50:00.000+08:00

Yes Everyone..
Listen up..

Everyone who are my fellow frens, bestie, colleagues, ex-colleaguess...
Seriously I miss times going out together..
And the best part of course is the FUN we all had..
Camwhoring and crazy crazy stuffz..

Frens have been so quiet..
Bestie.. I've yet to spend time together with ya.. Wonder how ur tummy looks like now..
Kekeke..
I wana go out with all of u but im bloody broke..
I hope i get to see all of u next mth or wat..

10 More Days !!!! to my.....
Big Day = Grow Old Day.. =P

I AM THRU..

2008-11-20T07:10:00.000+08:00

I GIVE UP..

BAD TO WORSE !!!

I DUN CARE..

Closer to You..

2008-11-20T04:50:00.000+08:00

there's so many things in my mind..
be it good or bad...
be it happy or sad..
be it crazy or mad..

lolz! rhymes.. sounds like a short poem..

Even tho met Baby yesterday after work.. I kinda missed him today.
All the best for his test today.. Proud of him.. I noe he can do it.. =)

Thanks Baby thru rain or shine u're always there..
You really took the time to be there, even if u cant..
I felt like every single time we meet.. it always reminds me of our first date..

Sometimes, its thru the hardships we went thru that I realised how much u really put effort in our r'ship..
And that brings me closer to u..
And that makes me love u more.

*Sheesh*.. *weeps*.. I'm gonna cry..
Baby..
I U !!!

P/S: Lazy to go for my appointment la today.. I juz wanna go home and sleep.. =(

oishii..

2008-11-19T03:19:00.000+08:00

my back really hurts..

I dunno what's the cause of it.. maybe cuz I carried some stuffs while shifting..

And that caused a mood swing fer me. And poor Baby had to go thru with me..

He brought me to West Coast Plaza after eating our dinner..
The place still new but looks fine to me..
Wat's important is there's quite a bunch of makan places.. and can't wait fer Sakae Sushi to open..
There's alof MOF Jap Sweets & Coffee yet to try.. hehe.

Asik makan je aku..

After finding some stuffs... he brought me to his aunt's house juz beside the mall..
Felt welcomed.. cuz his aunt is very frenly..
And her TFC channel hooked me cuz I'm into Pinoy dramas too.. and best of all Jericho Rosales is in it.. hehe.
Taknak alek lak tu.. lolz..

Overall, besides the mood swing.. I'm totally fine..

And I hope u all have a fine Wednesday today yah..

Andddddd GOOD MORNING !!! Have a hearty breakfast to all of u werking yah !!!

Need ur opinions please.. Due to a budget constraint, shud I still get my MAC powder and get over it ..or juz go for a simple ZA... cuz so used to MAC.. and if u guys have any other brands which is better than MAC yet affordable.. do share ya !!

control-shift..

2008-11-18T11:42:00.000+08:00

shifted out of my room to juz outside..
havent sit on the recep area cuz its still under progress..
hehe not much privacy tho..

well.. today kinda hv alot of work to do..
and now my mind totally blank dunno what to write..

dinner with my darling later keke..

and im ohhh soooo BROKE.. gosh....!!!

Bestie.. miss u babe =(

the weekend-rama

2008-11-17T06:42:00.000+08:00

Saturday..
I was freakin' bored at home..
Baby's werking the afternoon shift..
And so I juz had to sleep the whole day at home..

Watched Cintaku Forever at RTM 1 ..the hero was Yusry KRU.. a very heartfelt love story..
Imagine being in love and noeing both of u are gonna face death soon due to the sickness they had.. Sedih kann.. ?? =(

While watching.. I suddenly had an idea..
I did some facial scrub on my own..
And put on my whitening mask.. fer fun.
Hehe.. Had to relax for 15 min..
But I fell asleep and overshot 5 more mins ..hehe .. felt pampered by myself. Lolz.

The rest of the nite was spent lazily at home..
Boring..

Sunday came.. and I was still clueless of what to do ..
MSN-ed with Baby in the afternoon ..
And was trying to plan on where to go..
Dah penat pikir..
Last2..he came by & finally we went to JB..
Slight jam at Causeway Link and worst I was wearing short sleeve top..
It was freeaggin' HOT at first.. but then.. masok JB je after immigrations,

It started to drizzle and drizzle and pooooffff....
We zoomed to Boy's workshop..
Parked his bike there while asking his fren to do the bike..
Hailed a cab to .. Jusco at Tebrau CIty..
Kinda my first time there.. Thanks Baby for bringing me there..
Since he noe I'll get bored waiting at the workshop..

It was totally like Vivocity..
And loads of food...
and listen up peepz.. Manhattan Fish Market pon ade lah !!!! Halal lagik !!!
Heeheh..
I was disappointed cuz we knew about it only after we ate at this Rasa Mas restaurant..
Sumting like Kenny Rogers.
There's Roxy and Quiksilver but wanna shop there? Kirim salam lah.. mahal giler.. keke..

Im gonna go there again.. hehehehe..
Fatin, how much u eat the Seafood Platter in Spore?? At Jusco it was like RM46.90.. ahah..
Shud ask ur baby drive u there.. =)

Hehe..

Its so wet with heavy rain now.. and I cant eat..
I'll be starving.. cannot buy lunch.. how how ? =(

anew..

2008-11-16T07:49:00.000+08:00

i juz wanna be random here.

i dun wanna get myself too carried away..

juz dat today my mind felt so fragile..

watched music vidz and i cried..

cried my heart out..

duno why i'm like these..

i seldom go online right after i wake up.. with the 'juz woke up' face..

and... y ehh??

december's coming.. some are going on holidays, some are waiting for their bonus pay.. my co. dunno got bonus or not..

and i hope fer new resolutions..

and i wanna start anew.. =)

work smart...

2008-11-15T21:35:00.002+08:00

yeah..staying home on a saturday..
seldom fer me..
but i juz wanted this rest so much..
and while i home.. i noe i juz gotta do my werk..
my online werk..

i duno if u ppl are interested ..but then i myself did not believe in these things..
but yet i tried..
and now im one of the affiliates...

this is a business in which, you start low fir st then with ur own hard effort insya Allah will go up..
im still new so ive yet to see anything yet..
ive oways wanted to do Forex but i guess i try on this first..

if u guys are interested here's my link..

dun have to work so hard juz work smart.. =)

http://paydotcom.com/r/48989/darktearz85/21400541/

the shoes..

2008-11-12T03:26:00.000+08:00

looks like.. some things changed.
and i wonder what it is..

and i dun wanna think about it so much..

i juz dun wanna stress myself too much..
it juz wont work..

but at least new pair of shoes made my day..
bought pointed pumps at DMK..
had dinner with baby at NUS..
we put on innocent looks. hehe as if we're students there.
but indeed we got it at cheap price.. and the Indo Panggang nice until I was too full to finish it.

I think if i were to study in NUS, I think I'll really lose alot of weight..
cuz have to go up and down the hill..
hehe =)

and we found his Super 4 Super Bold'or twin... and parked beside it..
the other twin was black in color.. shud hv taken a pic of it..
his original bike was supposed to be in black actually..
and the rider from the other bike actually put a note on Baby's bike..
saying shud keep in touch cuz its rare to see Super Bold'or on the road..
not many ride it..
haha Baby ade geng baru seyyy.!!!

and on a lighter note.. i cant wait for my bday..
cuz i wanna stay home and sleep.. and forget about work.. =P

okies gtg now~

learn from the hardest way..

2008-11-11T04:03:00.000+08:00

my presence in ur life..
is to be with u thru thick and thin..
as long as im breathing..
I'd be here to help.
that's why I'm here for eu..

dun weri about how im gonna handle my own probz..
cuz urs is mine too..
and together we'll face it..

"To go the easy life, we have to go thru the hardships first.."

And its not gonna be easy..
But prayers said..
Along the way, with God's will .. we'll get out of these things..

P/S: Baby, hold me my hand and never let go... urs are mine to keep.. =)

u took my heart away..

2008-11-10T04:24:00.000+08:00

sometimes it gets complicated.. and confuses me..
and it's really not a good sign..
i have to think positive..
to think in a mature way.. cuz yeah im turning a year older soon..

the 1st will come soon.. and i shud act my age..

And I guess.. only time will tell whether I can make it or not..
Whether I'm meant for all this or not.
Whether it's love, life or lust..

I've already made the decision to take an off on my birthday..
I wonder why my company doesnt have Birthday Leave..
Lolz..
Govt jobs do have seh.. =(

Listening to Ria now and its the Bismillah song...
Dunno from who..
Got rap..
The old song from Yasin & Too Phat I noe..
But this one different..
Got like M.Nasir voice..
Nice raps with lots of morality advice..
"Tessa Rossa, rollacosta.. hahahah wTH??!!!

Hmmm wat are plans fer my bday..
Of coz there's no celebration.. like every year.. its the same.
Unless someone wants to hold a celebration for me..
I'd be happy to blow the cake.. hehehe.
Well not important lah..

But time really went by very very fast..
Before I knew it a year's gonna pass..
Since last dec, my breakup, till June this year my bliss when God gave me Baby..
The love I did not find but blooms by itself..
Which made me love him stronger each day..
And it's really true..
Love did find me by itself.. and it was my decision to either open up my heart to it or not..
Alhamdulilah..
I still rememver the moon,the waves and the stars witnessing our love bloom that nite.. =)
Love u Baby..

and hehe I was juz being random here..
I'm blogging bout watever in my mind now..
And its so cold..
heavy rain..

Back to reality now.. werk werk werk...

swim my stress away..

2008-11-07T06:22:00.000+08:00

Yeah.. swimming later this evening..
With Bestie..
Finally.

And had a gr8 time with Baby yest..
Went to get my collagen...
cost me $58 for a tin..
hee..

Look at some stuffz at Far East.. found lotsa nice dresses..
but none really caught my eye..

TGIF huh today..
Well have fun peepz and have a great weekend ahead..

I duno wat to blog.. juz wasting time in here I guess .. kekeke.

Toodlez

pamper me plzz...

2008-11-06T05:31:00.000+08:00

Tuesday..

Movie date with Baby after work.. he was on his last day of MC..
and we decided to watch Tropic Thunder..
Crazy war comedy.. hehe..
Youuuuu mer mer mer mer makkkkeeee me HhhaaaaPPPPieeeee ...
ahaha Simple Jack.

Actually was bit sleepy when the movie started.. I lost appetite to eat..
I only stole bits of fries from Baby.. tu pon kene pakse makan..
After movie, my head was bit dizzy..
And I was forced to eat.. I think he got kinda mad at me for not wanting to eat..
Well, if I faint, who's gonna carry me ..hehe.. im too heavy fer Baby mah lolx..!
End up late dinner at MacD..

RoDe home early as he's on the morning shift the next day..
Once I had my head on my cozy pillows.. I tink I snored soundly.. till the next morning..
Damn tired..

Wednesday : Yesterday..

Was at the office from morning till noon..
Went to the Clean & Green Exhibition at Suntec..
Packed with school kids..
And shook hands the CEO for my company if im not wrong..
and he totally reminded me of Pierce Brosnan..
Really..
James Bond..

By the time me and my colleagues ended our tour.. it was almost 4pm..
So headed fer coffee..
And shopped alone for my toiletries..while waiting fer Bestie for our last minute facial..
Hmm.. tot it was a great idea.. since my face needed some rejuvenating..
Hehe..
Then added some foot bath..
It was a pampering nite fer us..
Eventually we wanted to get a foot scrub but needed appointment..
So I guess next time then..

After facial felt so much better..
And a change of facial cleanser & moisturiser fer me..
If only I had more finance.. I wud continue my facial sessions..
But fer now I will do it on my own.. and focuz on my slimming..
My facial therapist.. said.. I look different much slimmer than the last time I went fer facial..
Hehe.. kembang kejap dok..

And I'm waiting waiting waiting fer a Spa Retreat..
Hopefully end of this yr..
Pleeeeeassssseee.... =P

Today will be meeting Baby after werk..
Need to get the Meiji Collagen Drink fer myself..
Hope it works..

And it's raining again..
Sheesh..
Cold = Sleepy = Wants to go home.. =P

Bye..

naked??

2008-11-04T04:08:00.000+08:00

sheesh.. eyebag spotted.. urggghhh..
see Fid go back late again.. then wake up early.. aiyohhzz..

I love Naked Fish Express..
I ate like nobody's business..
The guys were washing and brasso-ing their bikes.. while i munch munch munch..
And my Baby.. dah baik je fuhhhh mayap...
Syukur, he recovered.. =)

Hehe actually Naked Fish Express has existed quite long at Bt Pjg Plaza..
but me, who havent really explored Long Hill.. juz knew bout it..
And now I prefer there much better than Long John Silver's..
Not that Long John not nice la, but then NFExpress.. is much lovely and CHEAP..
hehe..
if u take away, they wrap the fries, fish or chicken like kcang puteh paper.. hehe..
so u eat fries like u eat popcorn..
The fries got this tasty rempah-ish taste.. nice la.

Maybe get it again.. hehe.

And I heard the new West Coast Plaza is full of MAKAN places..
Hmmmmmmm..
kk hungry oredy..but hv to control.. =)

Gotta do werk now. Toodlez.

ishhh..

2008-11-02T08:25:00.000+08:00

I had shocking news on Fri nite..
Baby was soooo sick poor him..
And he fainted off the road..
I was so worried..
Plus he was on the bike.. Syukurlah he's ok now..

Visited my Baby yest at NUH Emergency Ward..
Kesian dier.. muke sembab..
Ish..
I cudnt get any sleep when I found out he's oredy otw to hospital..
And still not awake in the morning..
Felt so quiet.. I cried and cried..
I was so worried..

But Alhamdulilah he's fine now..
I tink safely sound asleep at home..

I felt so guilty tat I was actually arguing with him that day itself..
If only he listens to me, when I asked him to go home after he found out he's not well..
he shudnt have waited fer werk to finish..
Degil..

Get well soon baby.. =)

Bestie accompanied me to the hosp yest..
After that headed to town for dinner and we actually had our pedicure session..
the pedi session i oways wanted..
hehe the shop was actually closing..but we managed to get it. hehe.
it was my first time...
and i tink i shud go fer it make it a once a mth thingy..

cuz i sucked at cutting my toenails..
and i felt bit pampered..

next off .. spa manicure..
scrubz..
and hehe .. maybe a short getaway to a nearby island fer some... relaxing moments..

i nid to relax my mind.. full of so many things burdened up my head..
till i get alot of headaches..

argghhh gosh i need to sleep in early tonite..
cuz i nid to wakie early tomorrow morning..
need to report to werk by 7.45am..
there's an EHS Safety thing going on the premises..
and we gotta be early..
GM wants to talk to us.. haiyahz..

Hopefully can wake up.. kekeke.

Okie rasa mcam nk tdo lak..
hehe but weather kinda hot hot hot.. =(

tata..

the new enviro

2008-10-31T16:09:00.000+08:00

I've been a very good gerl this days..
not surfing the net while doing work..
and shaking my leg in the office or either read my novel..

hehe not coz i purposely do it..
but cuz there's no connection.. and my werk needs the internet to check on all the emails and complaints..
hehe.
but soooo the very bored.
and i still feel my new environment is sooo weird..
haiz like no privacy at all..

but when im home i dun even have time to surf the net.
it's either im LAZY or went home too late to even switch it on..

and did I tell you my laptop crashed..and not juz crash..
but the hard disk totally GONE.. hurhur..

if i wana get a new one it'll cost me $300-$500 .. mite as well I get a new laptop seh..
haiz.. dunno wat's dad gonna do about it.
but i kinda had my eyes on the ACER small notebk only $799 hehe..
see how la either i get my own or dad'll buy..

but dun think i buy la cuz i have to save up fer more important things..

well.. klah till here then..

anyone watched The Coffin oredy?? any reviews???

=) Tata

sense of boredom..

2008-10-27T12:50:00.000+08:00

sleepy..
lazing at home.. bored lak.
my family out to Plaza Singapura....

sooo.. now im like left with dunno what to do..
TV boring.
Net boring..

I wanna go out .. juz indulge on sumting..
I want chocolate cake..
I want sushi..
I want to eat la.. hell yeah.. hehehee.

tomorrow, will be back to my boring office again..
with no internet connection.. cant even do my werk..
so all i did in the office was sketching, and eat.. ahhahaha.

haiz.. i tink i better go to sleep now.. so bored.

urghh.

u are the music in me..

2008-10-26T15:17:00.000+08:00

got home this noon..
Spent whole Sat cum Sunday with Baby..
And finally got to eat Popeye's at T1.. for supper ..
Been a long time since I had my hands on the fries and milk biscuit..
It was Baby's first time eating there and I'm glad he enjoyed it alot..

Had our breakfast at Al-Azhar's today.. cuz suddenly was craving for prata ..kekeke..

Dah kenyang.. ngantok.. pe lagi.. balik ruma tdo ah.. keke.

Friday after werk was spent mini shopping with Baby..
Chilled bit at town.. and last min planz..
Karaoke in the wee hours.. hehe .. Ni ah Bestie ku yg ngidam nk nyanyi..
Her baby really not tired.. asik nak nyanyi ajer.. kekekeke.
Enjoyed my time with Baby, Bestie & hubz and Baby's frens..

Tomorrow Deepavali..
Holiday.. which means sleep..
No plans of going out so I'll stay home..
And to all of fellow Indian frens & readers.. Happy Deepavali to u..

Tues is Baby's first day of his new job..
All de best.. and i'll have to adapt to his shift hours.. soon.
Nevertheless, nothing will bring me down.
Love him to bits..

Wanna watch High Sch Musical 2 now..
hehe..

boring nyer tkde net..

2008-10-24T05:37:00.000+08:00

*SOBzzz*

no INTERNET in my office..
And i've got like not much to do ever since the renovation started.
Ive finished packing..
and ive got no mood to do any werk..

To Fatin,
Get well soon ya babe..
Cya at Pandan soon aite..

And.. I need to go to the beach..
But the weather is like so wet wet wet these days..

Haiz i juz need to get my mind off work..
Nak gi batam.. fulus nya nggak ada ..

Kekekeke.
Well gotta go back to my boring comp now.

Dun miss me.. =)

Sepang & KL Trip 19-20 Oct 08

2008-10-22T16:47:00.002+08:00

soooooooo tired la..
guess wat??juz got home last nite... time checked almost 12am..
reached singapore around 10plus..chilled bit before I got on the bus home..

19 Oct 08 - Sunday
went to Sepang Race on the 19th. didnt sleep the whole nite.. Soo I cud only sleep in the flight..We took AirAsia.. from Senai Airport.. It wasss sooo tiring but I sure had fun with the guys and gerls..Crazy group...U go ..Team Banzai !!!
And Sepang was phreaaaakkiinnnn HOT !!! And I warned u.. I had burnts..Hehe..But my Mr R made my day.. hehehe Mr Rossi won the GP race.. And I was sitting at the grand stand.. so had a gd view of him..=)
Overall fun fun fun..After that took a bus to KL Central.. And we walked all the way to our hotel which is near ChowKit..Once reached me and Baby dah flat.. !!!Flat teros.. shared the room with another couple.. Belom sempat hilang penat.. we all went clubbing at nite..But I had fun.. lagu best..And that's the first time I clubbed with my Baby.. hehehe Errr.. i tink i drink too much..Only those who were there with me noes wat happened.. =P

20 Oct 08 - Mon
The next day supposed to head to Genting.. Me, Baby and Fiq went to get our lunch.. while waiting fer the rest to siap..After eating.. poor Baby had food poisoning..So we stayed at the hotel the whole day.. layankan sakit dier..The rest went ahead with the Genting plan..It was raining heavily and we cud only go out ard later evening..Me and Baby did some shopping..Bought myself some toiletries and jeans..Not much to shop tho.. haha.Tukar duit byk.. tapi tk beli barang.. Haha...Went back to the hotel late.. lepakz..

21 Oct 08 - Tues
My last day in KL..But the rest going back the next day.. Only me Baby & Fiq.. went home today..Took the Aeroline Bus..Best.. service very good.. dah mcm duduk in the flight la.. ade org serve..Next time go KL I shall take that bus again.. =)Okielah that's all bout the trip..Wanna get some rest now..

Enjoy the picz http://darktearz.multiply.com/photos/album/52/19_Oct_Sepang_Race

KL pics http://darktearz.multiply.com/photos/album/53

semalaman disisi mu.. ceh :P

2008-10-17T07:49:00.000+08:00

Mind me.. I feel like blogging in malay today..
Yg paham.. pahamkan.. yg tk paham, jangan macam paham...

Hehz

Semalaman, aku nyaris melangkah pergi..
Tahap kesabaran ku sudah jangkau yang paling atas..
Hanya tangisan yang dapat memahami ku..
Mengapa jadi begitu ..
Adakah aku terlalu mengikuti kata hatiku, atau ia sekadar satu ujian dari yang Maha Esa..

Satu ujian melawan ego masing-masing..
Menahan kata-kata marah..

Aku jadi bingung..
Aku buntu..

Hanya Tuhan sahaja yang tahu isi hatiku..

Arus hidup ini, tak selamanya indah..
Adakala berseri, adakala muram..
Penuh dengan dugaan..

Juz some thoughts I had yesterday...
I almost left sumone who loved me dearly..
But I noe in the end, I noe I can't live without him..
And he's a man who fulfilled his promises.
I realised when I hugged him yesterday on his bike, I noe that I wana keep hugging him and never let go..
Silently, I shed tears beneath the visor..
But the wind wipe it away...

And when he holds my hands, he'll surely give it a warm squeeze..
Which makes me all smiley..

I can see from his face, how he really wants me to be by his side always..
I've loved before..
But I've never felt loved like this from a man like you..

I juz dun wanna let go animore..
I noe I need you..
I noe U need me..
And the sacrifices that we have to make I hope will strengthen our bond..

Baby, I remember those words from u the first time ..
That it's gonna be hard but no matter wat we'll pull thru this together..
And insya Allah.. I'll always be by you.. =)

*sobz*

Sumtimes, a person does really love you...but some things will juz blind ur heart..
And u'll tend to follow ur ego..
I learnt not to take things forgranted and to always be thankful with wat God's given you.

:::: BaBy, I noe u'll read this.. in years to come, I still wanna be the one hugging you, kissing ur hand, comb ur hair, massage ur shoulders when ur tired, gaze ur eyes and hold ur hands.. Let's grow old together.. =) ::::

date with a hunk

2008-10-15T06:09:00.000+08:00

hehe yeah..
was out with a hunk..
he called himself a "HuNK"
hehe.. and indeed with tat shirt on.. he does look like a hunk..
and those Vans shoes he bought from Japan.. Singapore takda ahhh.. kekeke..
he does melt me... =)

ishhhh no no .. I didnt go out with another guy or wat .. and no I wont.. of coz not.
and the hunk is of coz my Baby..
hehe..
love the chest.. =)
and he declared himself a hunk after viewing himself in the mirror.
I was laughing my ass off.. but then look again.. ya la...he is hunky..

Those eyes, smile, body.. and my fave arms..which can strongly carry me..
Yea surprisingly he can carry me..

And Baby..
Thanks for spending ur time with me last nite..
And a date at Arnold's...
Next I promise u... I bring u to Popeye's..
Errr actually u, have to ride me to Popeye's kekekekekeke..

Or if anyone out there driving to Popeye's jgn lupe ajak aku.. kekekeke.
Bestie, amcm??
Drive to Airport.. hehe suro laki kau..
Maybe we shud all go out go bowling ke tgk wayang ke.. kekekekeke..

I love it when u wear ur speckiez... =)

K before i go on more mushy mushy.. I'd better stop.
Starting to miss him, padahal smlm aru jumpe.. Lol.

Cant wait fer this Sunday..
Nak mit my Mr R..
No not Mr Rusydi.. but Mr Rossi.. hehehehe if tk Rossi, Hayden pon leh lah.. kekekeke.

Ciaoz

sneezy day..

2008-10-14T12:28:00.000+08:00

juz not my day today..
been sneezing and coughing like mad in the office..
and my throat sored .. eat lunch oso like cannot swallow.. haiz..

was on MC yesterday due to a heaty fever..
which started off with a flu...

The flu started on Sun while raya-ing with Baby..

my weekends was a blissful one..
spent the Sat after work raya-ing Baby frens..
and first house was Bestie's ..
hehe..
juz the 6 of us.. plus 1 who joined us later..
overall.. pure fun.
cudnt come to Kak Dee's house since not much time..
picz taken. uploadz later ya.

Sunday was spent visiting my frens house with juz Baby..
Da mcm pengantin jalan berdua je..ehehe.. dgn samping dier.. =P
Went to Ida's house & Adq Ruq at Bedok..
And off back to Westside to Bestie's uncle house and Baby's frens house..
And yes.. finally meet Baby's mum.. nervous giler seh..
But we managed to had a little chit chat..
His frens left earlier while I'm in the toilet..
Isshhh macam sabo sehh.. kuar toilet tgk tgl aku sorang ajer..
AHahaha ape lagik kene interview la..
Lolz.

Baby send me off home.. with me caught with the flu..
And next thing I noe, Mon I was flat in bed with a high temperature..
Ishhh demam cuz nervous sgt.. ahaha.

Back to office with piles of work and letters to disseminate..
Right now theyre having a meeting outside my room..
Haiz.. bored.

Kk gotta do more werk now before I go back..

Ciao Romanoz.. =)

No More MSN =(

2008-10-10T12:21:00.000+08:00

wat ?! No more msn???

Actually havent been msn-ing much also in the office..
The new office in Pandan will be up soon..
Haiz alot of dust around .. ahhh-chooooo.

And worse... No MSN is allowed.
So I've got to endure..

And I think alot of changes will happen and I dunno if I can tahan or not..
God noes..

Well.. on a happier note..
Baby made my day yesterday..
And he look sooo charmingly handsome with specs..
I've always love guys who put on specs. Cute.
And he really look like a decent chinese boy...

And I'm happy today get to meet my darling Bestie.. fer dinner..

And and and.. erm erm erm...
I suddenly miss eating paddlepop ice cweam.. tee hee

Pedi..pedi...

2008-10-09T07:10:00.000+08:00

today mood bagus..
i wore a skirt to work..
hehe =)
i love the skirt.. tight.. ahahha feeling feeling sexy gitu loh..

Erm ermz..
Office kecoh sikit cuz my boss came back from his leaves.."
Nonstop mulot dier dadadadadaadadaadadada..
Makin aku type laju makin laju mulot dier menyenyeh ahahaha..

And suddenly Ive got so much to do.. But sempat blogging kekeke.

Yesterday went fer my appointment..
Feel the current & vibrations again on my tummy and thighs..
Now I know the machine is called VP Complex..
Hehe.
I was advised again to cut down on my food intake hehz =P
Right after my session, I drank a can of Carrot Juice.

Dinner and off I went home..

"I still cant believed the things I said to you. I noe its hurtful. I noe I sucked in this..
I am sorry.. sorry fer being the self-centered me.. But whatever it is, I wont abide ur love..
Ur love has been a precious gift from God.. Thanks for being you, dear."

I need a PEDI..
I mean pedicure.. ahaha mcm PADI lak..
I was in the ladies, when I look down at my feet.. my nails..
Gosh, I need to soak my feet in a steamy foot bath, have some foot massage and trim the nails.
Anione wanna do pedi with me?
Cuz its my FIRST time lahh.. hehz

Last but not least..
Ta-ta.. :p

i juz wanna zzzz

2008-10-08T11:22:00.000+08:00

ish bored la..
sleepy sumore..

what shud I do?

I cant stand it..

sooooo slack la today..

oh ya Fatin.. today ur old boss came down here..
he came in my office and I was like toking to uncle..
he waited near my table..when I didnt acknowledge his presence ahahahaa..
I juz say "ehhh hi.. (blank look) kekekkeekekee.

ughz..

but the new HR lady the one replaced Kak D.. seems nice.. =)
macam me-fe-la-fa-yu-fu ehhh..

aniwaes..
really cannot tahan la my eyes..

Cant wait fer diz Sat... Meet the parents session.. heehee ..
Nervous liao..

Aiyah going to rain seh.
Again ???
Aww man.....

Anyhooos.. I miss the darling boyfren..and the darling smile..
And the darling hugz.. and the the the the the ....dot dot dot wakakaka..
(Ape aje yg korang pikir ehkz??) lol.

Tuhan menentukan..

2008-10-08T05:01:00.000+08:00

today will be going fer my appointment..
errkkzz havent been following the diet given seh..
since raya started.. I gobbled everything I loike..
But at least better la I dun feel so fat now..

But then felt like buying those MeritPlus SLimming capsules and consume them once again..
Cuz it did work last time when I took those..
Hmm..

My plan to go to the gym yesterday TAK JADIK lagik...
Instead.. Baby waited for me at my block and off we went to Mr Teh Tarik JWest for dinner..
Terasa macam lapar gitu.. cuz the nite before I did not have my dinner..
Got myself Ayam Penyet instead...=)
Chilled fer awhile and off we went to his bestie's house..
3 of us chilled at Jurong Hill..
Me and Baby.. talked bout so many things..
What I loike about him, is that whenever he talks.. I can see his maturity..
The way he sees things, sometimes is much more mature than how I am..

I still feel I'm a kid inside my adult self..
I feel like going to school again and dun wanna work anymore..
But I want money at the same time hehehe..

I have decided..
And this decisions insya Allah must happen..
If not biler lagik sehh..

The things I am trying my best to make it happen before I turn 28 :

1) My Driving License
2) Diploma in Business Studies
3) My own business - cehh.. Bestie ur the only person I trust to do this together..
4) The Engagement & Marriage - insya Allah with the one I love..=)

Tapi I can only plan.. Tapi Tuhan yang tentukan..
But still I hope my efforts wont go to a waste.

Baby, if ur reading this..
I still remem our promise .. to go thru anything thick and thin..
And with u by my side.. insya Allah I'll make it happen. Amin.

Bestie.. my another plan is to....
One fine day when I have a child..
Mane tahu jodoh anak kite berdua.. cehhhh jauh seh fid pikir..
Kite berbesan la gerl..

Hehz.

That's all folks.

crashed and burnt..

2008-10-06T07:58:00.000+08:00

Laptop...crashed.
It kept prompting the "Start Windows Normally" message but never start at all..
and with regret.. I did not save a single thing in my laptop..
And that includes picz from year 2006..
Maybe its a gud thing all gone la..
Deleted memories...

Luckily I still havent deleted some pics from my thumbdrive and camera..

Heard news bout that "guy"..
But I shall not say much..
I dun even remember how he looks like anymore..
No hatred or grudges but then they hate me so what can I do rite..

Syukur Alhamdulilah.. for Baby..
Finally he managed to get the post he wanted for his new job.
I am soo happy for him..
Even tho I know time will be less spent with him, but its ok cuz I noe at the end of the day.. understanding and trusting him will benefit us in the near future.. insya Allah..

We kinda shopped yesterday at town..
But not much la..
Didnt have any mood to go raya so we both headed to town.. for makan and some shopping.
Met up with Iqah n bf.. so four of us headed to Ayam Bakar Ojolali (I think)..
My first time eating there.. and Baby decided next time we shall eat there again..
I loike my Grilled Snapper set.. yum yum.
Kenyang dokz..

Next stop.. MeLaLaKz Session at Ming Cash Studio..
Been mths since I last melalak..
And hidung tersumbat pon jalan terus jugak..
Lagu raya pon kite sing sing.. ahakz..
It was fun..
First time really went out with them..
And the Secret Recipe Oreo Cheesecake is YummeHH..
But I still love the chocolatey one...

will put photos up.. =)

Overall weekend was great..
With family and Baby..

Dunno when will go out raya-ing with frens..
And cant wait for 19th.. Sepang Race..
Rossi here I come..

Errrk..

cut the BANGS..

2008-10-03T04:47:00.000+08:00

this is the funny me..
ppl do the hair before raya..
but i did mine on the 2nd day of raya which is yesterday..kekee.
not exactly me only but my sister too..

and im not sooo happy with the outcome.
I dyed and highlight my hair but it seems like my hair still black lah..
And I paid for $108.. siao.

And and and.. I regretted.. I shud have chose the lightest color for the dye and blond strips for the highlights seh.. Haiz..
My dyed color is loike normal brown which can only be seen under the sun and the hlights like bit red2.. but CANNoT see lah..
Kentotz tol.. waste money..
Dun wana go that shop anymore..

Can sumone pls advise me on the colors...

Help !!!

But I love my bangs.. got it trimmed.
Maybe my mistake la choose wrong color..
If u all noe of any good salon doin good hair coloring ..
Tell me bout it..

I ammm sooooo BORED of black hair.. sheesh.

I love my sis curls tho.
Perming outcome is always pretty.. especially the fresh curls..
But to manage it ..makkk oi.. Been there done dat..

And pls tell me.. Shud I go bleach my hair blond or wat.. ??

Tell me, tell me.. I need ur opinionz peeparl..

Ciaoz..

P/S: I'm lovin my bangs.. and cant wait to mit my BaBy..

di hari raya...

2008-10-02T16:58:00.000+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya to all of you... Muslimin dan Muslimat..

The day which meant alot to me..
First cuz, I still get to celebrate with my family..
Even tho I'm always like being rude and stubborn to the family..
In the end.. I still love them all.
Love my sisters.. even tho I dun show much to them..
Love my mum, even at times I oways disobey her rules..
Love my dad, even at times I oways had freq late nites quarrels with him..
We're still family at the end of the day.

And also, this year Raya is special for me in a way.
Welcome my new baby cuzin in the Ismail family.. Baby Rohit Armani.
The sweetest boy ever, which really resembles my late baby bro, Shakir.
I can't stop kissing him..
Dukung taknak lepas lah... kekeke.

And also this year raya.. in the first place I was thinking if this year I might spend it alone.
Single la kononnyer..
But no.. cuz sumone special captured my heart..
And so this year is me and Baby's first Raya together..
He's all sooo excited bout it cuz he never had a gf before during raya.
I love him to bits la..

Malam raya.. I actually wanted to go to Geylang with Baby after kenduri raya..
But then.. it kept raining.. and raining..
And tat point of time I wished I'm driving.
Hehe.
Ntah biler lah aku nak pegang tu steering wheel..
Lol.

Night of Hari Raya.. recited doa fer the late ones who have passed on ..
Sayu gitu..
And I fell asleep while watching Sinar Lebaran..
Haha.
The tired me.

Well..
Picz to be uploaded soon.
Malas lak nk upload heheh.

And to all my frens and fellow readers out here..
Would like to wish all of u Salam Lebaran..
If I've ever hurt ur feelings thru mouth or blog.. I seek for forgiveness.
Hope u all have a Happy Hari Raya with ur love ones..
Take Care..

all gone..

2008-09-30T05:11:00.000+08:00

Haiz..
Didnt get to do my hair..
I wish I'm on halfday today but NO I'M NOT.. sheesh..
Working full day today.. haiyahz..
Cuz I din wana apply leave.. Potong gaji.. uat pe.. Hmmmmphxxxxx

But nvm..
Tomorrow, my hair will be the blackest .. hahahah..
1st day of raya.. takpela behave sikit..

Nice lak tgk org perm.. but for me lazy lah wanna manage..
Cuz last time I've did perming before..
Baru-baru perm nice ah.. but as time goes by ahaha lazy..

Managed to do last minute chores and choc chip cookies..
All done by myself..
Slept early last nite.. soooo tired.

Maybe going Geylang tonite.. cuz I still havent get my Cheesestick Orange Crackers..
Near my house here all goneee..
I dunno if Baby can accompany me or not.. haiz..
I noe it'll be crowded..

And i forgotten to send my white gold necklace for welding ..
Cuz it split when I was at Bangkok.. *sobs*
I think I'll juz get a new chain la.. hehe.
Cuz I cannot wear silver la neck itchy.. hehehe..

Okie I'm having a headache now..

Miss my Baby.. =(

well spent weekend with love..

2008-09-29T06:28:00.000+08:00

Friday nite..

Broke fast with Baby at Pasir Panjang Nasi Lemak..
Been craving fer it.. finally got it hehe..
Ate as much..
Oh oh... I didnt follow my diet oredy seh must buck up kekeke..
Bestie's mummy called to say.. no need to do our Nutella Cake..
Ler...
So off me and Baby to West Coast MacD since he wanted his ice cream so much..
Juz to occupy time while wait fer Bestie to get the groceries..
Soon got a call from her to buy some stuffs..
So off to Sheng Siong Clementi.. hee near my nyai house..
Wahh they still got fresh fishes seh at nice..
We had to tawaf the place juz to get our sugars and butter.. kekeke.

Me and Baby went to Bestie's house later on to start on the baking...
Got busy on the baking.. while Baby go watch TV..
Hehe and yes our Choc Kit Kat cookies.. succeeded.. hehe..
Despite the kneading and the kecohness in the kitchen kekeke..
It was so fun.. !!
Bestie had much fun man.. and the cookies taste yummeh... =)

And I didnt expect Baby wud really wait fer me till the wee hours in the morning..
I wasnt sleepy at all..
Checked on Baby to see he and his bestpren oredy snoring away.. haiyozz..
Kecian sehh.. he waited cuz he didnt want me to go home alone with cab.. ishh..
Thanks so much Baby.. =)
And its already 3am...
So .. sahur-ed at her house..

Babe first time eh kitorang dapat sahur2 sama2..
We shud do this often..
Maybe dinner together.. hehe..=)

there were pics taken fer the cookies but hehe at home la..

After sahur-ed, we rode off home..

Saturday..

Woke up..noon..
Baby ajak me go Angsana JB.. yay..
Juz to see whether we cud get some stuffz there..
Hehe..
And my gudness helmet mcm nk terbang.. and all thanks to Baby..
Ride mcm giler..
But we reached there fast .. lucky no jam..
Went there also since we got so sick of town town town and sumore the F1 goin on.. hehe.
Break fast at Kenny Rogers.. finally..
Sorry ya Bestie supposingly we supose to go together with ur hubby rite but then.. ni pon mcm last min hehe..
But aniwaes..
Happy Birthday to her..
Hope ur celebration with ur love ones was a memorable one.. =)

Chilled at one of the bike workshops at JB.. aiyohh wait till late seh.. ngntokz..
Then we both had Ramly burgers fer late supper hehe..
Lapar nyer pasal..
Only then we rode off home thru Causeway.. surprisingly no jam.. =)

Sunday...

Cleaned up my messy messy room..
Went to buy my shoes at JP..
And found out got my red light hehehe...
Yay..
Can makan..
Ape lagi bedal ah choc kitkat..

Then Baby accompanied me to town to get my bag fer Raya..
cuz my last yr Guess Bag zip broke.. haiz.. my fave bag seh..
Makan at Resto Surabaya Lucky..
Lembab sak service.. ahah
I tink the rest of the customers oredy eaten half their food while ours.. still waiting fer the rice..
Ishh.. bad experience..

Mum and sis ajak me n Baby go geylang.. but he was sooooo shy..
Last2 time alek.. my mum's cab was juz infront of us..
Ape lagik member sembunyi lah ahahah.
Takpe.. raya then u can show ur face ya Baby.. kekeke =P

And soooo shagged today.. A Monday..
Haishh..
Wish today is a HOLIDAY..
1 more day to Raya..
Phewww.. loads more to clean..

And do my hair..

Errr.. better do my werk now..
Sorry fer being the long-winded Fidah today.. sheesh..

Ciaoz.. !

mcm dalam igloo.. grrrr !

2008-09-26T08:07:00.000+08:00

iTs sooOOOOOOO phReaKin cold in here...
will anyone out there be kind enuff to share me a sweater or better off a blankiee...
so i can snuggled in my cosy office..
I tink I'll catch a cold again seh..

The air-con worse.. remote spoil.
So cannot adjust the temperature..
In fact the air-con hasnt been switched off since last week..
Imagine the coldness..
Suddenly miss the ambience in Joo Koon..
Well well well =P my fellow colleagues will shift in here soon hehe..
Can't wait to reunite again.. Yay.. !!
Gossip gossip ehk..

Awww Big Reminder..
I haven't clean my room..
Everywhere I read in blogs.. mostly cleaned their house oredy..
Hehe.. lucky Dad oredy painted the house way before fasting.. =)
Left with curtains, dunno mum wana buy new one or not..
My bedsheets, wipe my window grills, throw my big pile of unwanted rubbish.. ahakz.
I havent dig out all of it yet.. once I dig,. I'll sneeze and sneeze hehe.. dusty mah =P

And arrange my novels.. mostly bought but havent read.. hehe.
I lost all my Manga figurines seh.. dunno what my little siblings did to it..
Haiyahz.. last time shud hv bought the glass display to cover my collection from being ruined.

Yesterday evening Baby booked out of his camp.. and this time.. its his last day of Reservist..
I was so excited to see him..
Missed him loads..
But, something happened.. and we both had a BIG argument..
But all things fine now.. we met up last nite to talk things out and Alhamdulilah we were both back to normal.
I regret saying those words to him, when I knoe deep down I really love him so much.
Anger controlled my mind so all I did was shout out those words..
Sorry Baby..and thanks fer that hug.. =)

Will be goin over to Bestie's house tonite..
Baking baking.. cakes & cookies.. yummeh..

Okies, I'm really shivering now.. tak leh tasyan.. grrrrrrr.

Ciaoz

can i?

2008-09-25T10:25:00.000+08:00

with this pain in my head now..
I just feel like shouting ..
Can I ? Arrrrrggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~

K done.

I'm not at my nicest mood now.
Really not feeling well..

I juz wish the day would end very soon..
So tired.

I just wanna sleep.
Bye..

aku penat laaa..

2008-09-23T11:10:00.000+08:00

I am sooo tired..
Yesterday managed to try out the recipe I found online..

Choc Chip Cookies with Nestum..
First tryout.. smpai blackout my house.. due to seldom on the oven..

Then duno y bake for few minutes only the biscuit burnt..

Haiyoz..

Sooo I froze the batter..
Hope today turns out well..
More cookies to bake...

Need to buy more stuffz..

Oh yeahh I need shoes & handbag ..
Haiz..

What else..
New curtains?

Hmm.. give me a break........

=( Baby sorry....... I was so grumpy lately..
U've always been my victim when comes to my rawwwrrrr.....
Hehe thanx fer being patient with me.. =)

tagged by aDeq..

2008-09-22T08:55:00.000+08:00

Hehe..
I've not much to do.. So did this as requested by aDeq.. KeKe..

1) Where would you go if someone sponsor you an air ticket?
Would love to go to Japan or Europe tour..

2) What's ur fave thing to do?
Camwhoring and PSP-ing..

3) Do u think money can buy happiness?
Of coz not.. money are just notes with no feelings..

4) If you were given a chance to receive something, what would it be?
A car perhaps.. hehe =)

5) Things you can't live without?
Family, Baby, Hp, Frenz, Food, Drink, Money..& errr my face powder..

6) What are you afraid to lose?
My love ones.. and my wallet..

7) If you win $1 million, what would you do?
I would buy my important stuffs, save for my future and ask Baby to get married to me with the money.. hehehehe

8) What do you dream of doing in the future?
To become a successful woman.. =)

9) List 3 gud points about the person who gave you this survey?
aDeq - Sweet, Cute and Kind =)

10) What makes you happy?
Chocolates and my Baby's smile..

11) What type of person do you hate most?
Pretenders, backstabbers & world..

12) If you have super powers, what would it be?
The power to freeze time.. hehkz =P

13) Would you go for the happiness or money?
I would say both.. cuz happiness with money is a Bonus.. =)

14) Who do you think is the most important people in your life?
My family of coz.. and it'll be Baby's too..

15) If you have a gf/bf, would you die for her?
Hehe.. I leave it to God..

16) What is the one ting you want to do badly rite now?
I want to eat la.. hungry..

17) Who are you close to?
My family, Bestie, Baby.. and my frens =)..

18) Are you courageous enough to tell the person you like him/her?
Of coz la..if never tell later regret.. haiyoz..

19) If you could do one thing all over again, what would it be?
To not start drinking.. I really want to quit.. Da quit ponz.. =)

20) Things that scare you?
Anyting eerie or tragedies..

21) 7 things you like/love the most?
Baby, sleep, his bike, choc, camwhoring & money.. hehehe

22) 7 important things in my room?
Bed, laptop, TV, mirror, novels, charger & my make-ups.

23) 7 people to do this questionnaire?
Ayu, Nyla, Atika, Suli, IqahRusty, Zyla, Immirza .. do ya if u guys free =)

Hehe. Done.
So bored.
Monday blues.. =(
Miss Baby.
3 more days to go yah..
Cant wait to bake my cookies today.. =) Bought the dry goods last night hehe.
Gonna do Honey Cornflakes & Choc Chip cookies.. yumz..
Baby wants to try it.. keke ..

Hopefully everyting turns out fine.. =) Insya Allah..

geylang,cookies..

2008-09-22T07:48:00.000+08:00

fiNaLLy... bought 2 pairs of baju kurung for myself..
Found a very close color to Baby's kurung..
This yr..we both songket hehe.. =)

Sat afternoon 2 hours before break fast .. was so jampacked..
Luckily ade gak parking..
We were both so exhausted with the crowd but we still manage to tahan our puasa..
after resting fer awhile..
we both went back to the carpark to head to the nearest motor workshop.. since his buddy was there waiting..

And my utmost surprise.. !!!! I almost shout too!!!
I bumped into Nadia & Nikman at the carpark itself..
Wahhhh really long time since I bumped into the both of them..
She was with her sister I tink...
And small world.. Baby noes the sister's bf..
Hehe park sebla2 aje.. kkekeke.."
Was nice to meet Nadia =)

Headed to workshop and then off to buka-ing..
Merempat jap kat blakang Teh Tarik Haig Rd..
Park at the side of the road and got some food..
Wahhh sental otak-otak ikan fuhh smpai kenyang ahahha.

After that we went our separate ways..
Jalan2 with Baby and we had supper at Adam Rd Food Ctr..
Tak tahu nak makan ape last give up to this Indian guy who's been touting us to buy from his tall..
Padahal, there's a sign there no touting..
Tak beli org tu ngamok lak..

So I shared a plate of Nasi Goreng Merah with Baby and had 3 glasses of Teh.. whahah.
We talked about us.. about religion..
And tots of opening the Al-Quran and ngaji again was in my mind..
Maybe I cud ask Baby to help me.. since he katam I tink lots of times oredy..
I'm sure he can guide me.. slowly.
But I missed my Quran which I bought with the meanings and translation in English..
It's still with my ex..
I tot of dropping by to take the Quran from him or his sister..

Today I'll be busy baking..
So will be going home strate after werk..
Cant wait to bake my Honey Cornflakes & Choc Chip cookies..
Yumz..

Friday will be baking at Bestie's place..
Gerl, my bf wants to join us for baking ..
Can tak? Confirm nanti last2 melepak ngn laki n adek kau kt hall..
Lolz.. =)

Cya gerl on Friday..

Fish Zinger..

2008-09-18T06:59:00.000+08:00

I can't help it ..
It was in my mind the whole day at the office..
So.. break fast with Alia at KFC..
Yumz.. got my Fish Zinger Meal..
And I noe I broke the rule.. Shh...
But its ok wat I fasted the whole day.. so.. shud be ok la..

Geez.. after eating KFC only then I saw my Roti Kirai.. haiyahzz..

Nvm, cuz Roti Boyan made my day last nite..
Late snack of Roti Boyan which Dad brought from dunno where.. sental ajer ah..
Yumz again..
But but but.. I ate a slice only ah.. kekeke..

Watched the last episode of Jeritan Sepi and I cried on the last scene of the drama..
Touching giler.
Then when Baby called me he laughed at me for crying.."
Blardy gol tul !!
But his voice juz melts me and forget bout the whole thing..

Well today..
Looking forward to meet my ITE frenz for Iftar..
Can't wait..
Maybe break fast at Sakura..
See how it goes.. Miss u Fara, Shidah & Akbar..

And.....
This Sat iftar with Baby frenz again.
This time I dunno who'll be coming..
We'll see..

And gotta hunt for that baju raya.. hmmmm boring sehh.. have to rempuh Geylang.. =(

Kk better do my werk now..

wat else???

2008-09-17T08:31:00.000+08:00

What else can I do..besides blogging in here..
Since now is the lunch hour..
Brought my PSP so that I can rest my mind off work fer awhile..
But since I got the time I shall blog abit..

My morning was fine for today..
Reached office soo early.. 7.25 am reached safely.
This time after woking up, I automatic stood up and go to the toilet strate..
Takde tido-tido alek (hehehz which is my bad habit)
And surprisingly even without Baby's wake-up call.. I cud wake up by myself..
Usually when he calls la, makes me want to sleep again wekekekee...

Im kinda fresh now..
And errr hungry..
I'm like so lazy to fast today..
But I guess I shall just continue my fast..
So far I havent ponteng.. besides the nrmal redlight days..
Hehe break record..

Suddenly my mind is thinking of Roti Kirai (roti jala) my fave..
Ishhh..

headaches and worries..

2008-09-16T09:56:00.000+08:00

havin a very big headache now..
and the pain is juz on top of my eyes..
hurts badly..
but still have to endure..still continue my fast..

maybe due to the Nasi Lemak I ate for Sahur this mrning..
and the almost overslept morning made my head aches alot..
and eyes sored red.. haish..

I wish the day wud end very fast..

Lunch hour, I took a long nap..
Called Baby up to see if he's doing fine at camp..
Juz hoping his reservist will end soon.

Had a great time with Bestie last nite..
Broke fast with just curry puffs from OCK and my Jollibean drink..
Then made our way to Lucky Plaza's Ayam Penyet Ria..
Quite awhile not eating there..
They had this promo set.. RedSnapper fish with Rice set..

And I love it to bits..
It tasted better than the Pecel Lele (Catfish)..
And the chilli padi is still spicy as ever... hot hot hot..

Dragging our feet we took the MRT home..
Penat gitu..

But it was nice to meet my Bestie once in awhile since she's busy now with her responsibilities as a wife.. and soon a mummy..
I wonder how her kids will look like..
Let's juz pray you have a smooth pregnancy and that your baby grows healthily..

and I wish I had my own.. hehe.

maybe, mentally I'm prepared to get married and have kids but.. financially maybe lom rezeki la..
and I still have years to go before I really settled down.

I dun talk much with Dad now..
And I dun bother ..
I just need some little space of my own..

I need space..

speaking of space.. I havent clean my room ..
I mean really spring cleaned..
I think I am gonna collect alot of dust from the cleaning..
Eurghh.. ~

longgar wo~

2008-09-15T12:36:00.000+08:00

yay..

my pants are much looser now...
and my tops got more space to fit in..

hehe thanks to fasting and taking care of my diet.
nwadays I cant finish my food..

hmm I have an idea.. whatever I eat I cannot finish I give Bestie eat la..
wakkakaaka.
asik lapar je.. mengunyah aje keje makcik tu..
oopzz ngumpatz aje fid, batal puasa kiter.. haiyoz.

so bored.. juz counting down the time to go home seh..

Well.. juz look on the bright side lah..

Missed Baby.. =(

recap, and juz cant handle it anymore...

2008-09-15T09:23:00.000+08:00

Recap on my wonderful weekend..

Friday.. TGIF..
Slack, didnt do much work..
Broke fast with Alia my colleague at one of the coffeshopz in Clementi Central..
It lookz like Mr Teh Tarik cuz got one of the stalls Sedap Noodle..
Hehe..
Lupe nak amek picz..
Ate Rojak India..after such a long time eating it..

Baby booked out of his camp and he managed to break his fast with his family..
Reached home after eating and I was oh-so-crampy..
And I remembered I cried reading one of Baby's touching smses..

But soon came Saturday..
A nice weather to sleep.. it was drizzling.. cold..
And good thing was I'm on my off day..
Went out only after 3..
Dressed up and mit Baby at my block.. I soooo missed him to bits..
Felt like hugging him but we were both fasting...
Hehe.. =P

Met his friends at Bencoolen for iftar..
Chilled a while..
Went to Bugis St cuz the guys wanted to catch Man U vs Liverpool..
So we headed to Breko Cafe..
Ahaha tk masok diri luar aje .. lolz.

While me n Baby got bored of the game.. we both wandered at Bugis Village..
I bought myself a tube top..hehe $10 ajer..
If i noe, I bought alot of those sehh at Bangkok.. haish..
And nyahahhaah got stickers for my helmet..
And I'm gonna look for more..

Later, we rode off to Memo..
Chilled turtle .. till morning..
Me and Baby had our Sahur at Al-Azhar..
And then headed home.. with sleepy eyes..

Spent my Sunday on the bed till buka time..
Haha lazy ass..

And peepz..
I wanna ask u..
How do you overcome being in a situation whereby one of ur parents juz can't accept the person u love??
And how do u convinced him/her that the person u love is a good guy..

Haiz..
It's been on my mind lately..
And my parents dun even trust me at all...
Im a big grown lady at the age of 23..
Can't I juz go back late at times without u guys keep ringing my hp..
It gets irritating sumtimes..
Can't juz an sms saying "I'm outside, Be home late..", convinced u guys..
Haiz..

Other than that.. Dad is being such a heartless person..
He dun let any of my frens come to my house for Hari Raya..
Waddafuck..

so so worried

2008-09-12T22:32:00.000+08:00

changed my blogheader and some parts of the layout..
just so bored lah..
so juz had some ideas ..
still i wanna do more..

if only im gud at it so i can design more themes with brushes..

hehe..

today's Friday..!!!

Baby's coming home today..
Yay!!
Cant wait for tomorrow..
On off tomorrow so I get to sleep.. yay...
heehe..

So so looking forward to meeting him.. wanna squeeze him ahakz..
Today's a Friday.. hmmm maybe juz go home strate again..
No one to go out with..
Plus $$ oso not enuff.. hurhur =(

I'm worried bout my Sepang trip..
I dunch noe if i have enuff leave or not..
Haiz..
So So worried.. =(

I really hate my salary payment..
Twice a mth is really hard fer me to save up.
And now everything needs money..

Sorry kids, no duit raya this year.. lolz. :p

Ciaoz

angst..

2008-09-12T13:19:00.000+08:00

juz had enuff with werk.
overheard sumting..
and i noe im not gonna tahan with all these.

I had to disappoint Baby..
Fer the trip.. tkde leave nyer pasal..
Or maybe I'll juz take the unpaid leave. Arghhhh..

But I dun care I am still goin to the race..
Hmmmphxxx..

I'm staying late in the office now to do what's necessary..
I dunno what i'll break fast with.. Milo & Biskot maybe..

Gotta do werk now..
Hungry la.. =(

dark tearz

2008-09-12T01:26:00.000+08:00

As some of y'all noe..
I oways put my initials as Dark Tearz..
I love my nick and there's a reason why the name sticks with me till now..
And it's been 5 years now..

Many have asked, "Why ur nick Dark Tearz??"
The answer to this is that.. "No, I'm not those ladies who have tears tattoo below their eyelids.. And sorry no offence most ppl call them minas' or minarepz..
No im not any of those list of people..
But it's quite amazing to see this girls or ladies who have the guts and endurance to go thru a tattooing process despite the pain.
I do have frens who have tattoos and I dun mind at all.. in fact I admired the nicely designed for ladies..

Ok back to the main point.. ahaha..
My nick was actually a meaning of my real name Nurafidah.
I dunno why but this site gave me a gothic nick transformed by my real name..
And it turns out to be "Dark Angel of Tears"..
So, get it now why I'm Dark Tearz..

I laughed when some tot I mina lah.. yeslah I mina selengit adelah.. Lolz.

Well..
The reason why I blogged about this cuz ahahahhaah mainly I dunno what to blog..
Kekeke..

Oh yah went to Geylang yesterday with my sister.
Cudnt manage to find any baju raya which is nice..
Yang aku nak harga semua meletopz.. ahhaha.. I cannot buy so expensive la budget babe!
FL2 oso.. not many caught my eye..
Stress liao..
How How.. no baju seh...
=(
Any ideas where to get ranging from below $100..

Haiz, another sleepy day to go thru today.. *yawnz*
I have to face the comp for 7 hrs starting now.. haiz.

Hurhur.. =(

ayam percik pleeeeeeshhh

2008-09-11T07:17:00.000+08:00

this is a very tiring boring post.. BeWaRe!!!

I dunno what to blog about but I just felt like typing it out.
Just to cover up my sleepiness and my boring-ness in the office..
No one to sms with ahakz..
Cannot sms boyfie cuz he very busy jadi abang-abang gurkha..

Gossiping with bestie now on the phone..
hehe.. bored siak.

And tummy grumbles again..
3 more hours to yum yum..
Going geylang serai with my sister.. check on baju raya..
Dunno whether shud get a normal baju kurung, kebaya or those pantsuits..
Hmm.. but I tot of kebaya.. see how..
I wished I'd go for tailored but my family's always the last min kind so too bad..
No tailored clothes for this year..

Baby..... I MISS U.
It feels so long to reach Friday...
=(

Okie I'm craving for Ayam Percik.. but I noe I cant eat alot.. must watch my diet.. oopz.

Last nite break fast with colleagues Fatin, Zack n Faizal.. at Mr Teh Tarik 456..
Had my normal Chicken Chop and Horlicks Dinosaur..
Yum Yum..
Relax abit before heading home..
Once home, waited for Baby to call..
He sounds sooo tired ..
Keciannz dier baca notes sampai tertido..

Miss looking at his face when he sleeps..

Yawnzz...
Let me have a 5 min nap before I do my work again..

Ciaozzzz

the boyan craving..

2008-09-08T10:42:00.000+08:00

Suddenly I'm craving for Roti Boyan...
Mmmmm...in the blood ah.. org boyan katakan..
Tummy *grumbles*..

and I still cudnt get my hands on the suji pudding.. haiz.

and I wonder wat Baby's doing at his bunk..

and I wonder how, i wonder why... *err, mcm lagu Lemon Tree ajer??!, lolz*..

okies.. seriously i am bored to the maximaz...

hmmm dunno if I shud bake cookies this year or not...
shall go open the recipe book.. yumz*

okies.. stop thinking of food.. haiz batal gak puasa aku nie.. cant help lahz..

shagged and missing him..

2008-09-08T07:11:00.000+08:00

It's a Monday..
I'm not having the blues but my whole body's aching..
My right arm strained..

But overall, my weekends were suPeR sweet.. with spending time juz me and Baby..
From Fri to Sun.. hehe tk jelak lak ehk..
Since today he's already reporting to camp for his Reservist.. so we took the chance to spend time together..

Friday started off with breaking fast at Bussorah St.. bought lamb kebabs at the mini bazaar and my Nutri Soy milk hehe.. we broke our fast at one of the alleys behind the Sultan Mosque.. It was a nice feeling to hear live azan.. which marks the time to break our fast and also the Maghrib prayers.
After makan, I sat one corner near the mosque while wait fer Baby to perform his Maghrib prayers..
Then we headed to town to juz chill.. went to Cineleisure..to remember our very first date..
Hehe..
Sweet..

Saturday... went to work in the morning... Ngantuk bangetz.
And went home after dat to sleep..
Then off to Balestier with Baby to find some stickers for my very plain helmet.
I really wanted to design my own but dunno how much. Lolz.
Cudnt find any nice ones so we headed to the next shop.. this time to get his gloves.
Broke our fast at Bencoolen.. Hmm.. the Roti John I tell u.. mmmmm... marvellous..
Besar and sungguh mengenyangkan.. with cheese with mushrooms... aww loveley...
Then off to Geylang to jalan2 but it was so damn packed..
And plus we were soaked in the heavy rain.. ahaha syiok lah.. kekekke.. all wet..
Stopped sumwhere nearby to dry ourselves up..

Sunday.. was Zzzz day.. Slept the whole day.. My whole family didnt wake up for Sahur.. sume overshot tido.. wakakak..
And I slept till 6..ahaha ntah batal ke tak puasa aku tu..
Showered and break my fast with my family at home..
Initially my plan was to stay home.. but Baby smsed me..to meet after break our fast..
He wanted to get last min stuffs for his reservist today..
Off to IMM .. hmmm saw a pair of LEVIS signature jeans.. which cost half a price of the usual Levis Jeans.. I was so surprised..
Tot of getting a pair of those .. soon.
But importantly my Raya stuffz... lom beli!!! ahahhaah..

Baby sent me home and we chilled near my block..
I'm starting to miss him.. But 2 weeks will soon pass by quickly..
Insya Allah he still books out on the weekend ..
So I cant wait.. =)
Miss ya Baby..

And damn.. miss Bestie too..
Mane kau.. lama tak comment kt Multiply aku.. hmmmph..
Dah ade baby lupe aku eh kekekekeek..
I hope to see u in any of the wkdays for Iftar and geylang.. =)

Enjoy the week peeple... =)