Marks today.. I need to change my eating lifestyle..

Went to Expressions yesterday to meet my consultant..
I redeemed my prize of $500 voucher which equals to 2 sessions of my full body slimming treatment..
And at the same time I took on the package almost cost me a bomb.. but im fine with if since I can pay mthly instalment.. Aiyoh but then hutang bank 1 year..

But I hope this treatment can help me..
I cant wait for them to cut away my tummy fats.. the body wraps.. juz cant wait..

Starting today, I will start my Food Diary.. a small book which I will write on what I ate for breakfast. lunch and dinner..

I weigh myself yesterday.. and OMG I'm like sooo heavy.. 60kg sia..

My consultant says.. its gud that watever Baby eats.. I eat bits from him.. and drink loads of water..
Any fatty foods I have to eat only half of the portion served.

Plus.. fasting mth will help me alot.. insya Allah..
3rd Sept my appointment.. the start of my journey..

And my another appointed trainer and consultant will be my Baby himself..=P
Coach Didi.. keekkekeke..
Now, I wanna go gym.. no kakis.. =(

Nevermind, try my best to go alone after work bt then. fasting mth.. not much I can do la.. nanti pengsan leii..

Tak sabarnyerrr...

Today marks.. my PERIOD.. ahhahaha ..
This is the only way for me to remember my when my period come..

And also today marks my 2nd monthzie with Baby.. tho it's only 2 mthz being with him but I felt like I've known him for long..
I hope it goes on smoothly..

Baby if you're reading this, I juz wanna let you noe.. that u're the best thing that happen in my life.. I love every moment being with you.. And I'll never forget the first time we dated.. The cable car ride, the sunrise moment.. and all beautiful moments I had with you..And I hope these moments wont stop and keep on going..

I U sooo much.. Muackz. =P

Baby fetched me from work yesterday.. Went to Queensway after such a long time being there.. I think I'm gonna get shoes..
Hmmm.. $$ $$ $$.. if only I'm still sixteen.. ishh leh dpt duit raya eh.. =P LoLz..

Then chilled with his Bestie.. till late night.
Tu pon rasa tk puas..
Ahaha.

Tibe-tibe ku rasa seram lah pasal my slimming consultation.. Hope it all goes fine..

Hope to see ya later Bestie.. =)

true true true..

Everywhere seeing babies.. see my guts were rite lah Bestie... ur gonna be a mummy..
Sooooo happy to hear dat... wow.. being a Mummy at 24 ..
Young Mummy eh..

Will always pray fer ur baby.. insya Allah .. strong baby..

Reminds me of how I saw my mum pregnant with twins.. She can still go to the market and come back, water burst.. some more want to fry sumting b4 leaving the house..
Haha tat's my mum.. org dah season kan.. we all need to learn from our own mumz bout all this..

Yesterday received a call from Expressions saying I've won the contest i participated in yahoo.. I was attracted by the slimming ad so, I did the contest for fun.. Didn't noe I was the first 100.. to get the offer. I won a $500 slimming voucher.. And tomorrow is my consultation.
Juz try-try la see how.. free mah.

Macam seram lak nak gi sorang.. see how..

And furthermore, the fasting month is juz next week..
I hope to loose lots of kilos.. I need to get back in shape..
And I hope I have a smooth month this year.. =)

And the hassle.. cuz I need to search for baju raya.. no baju la seh.. ahahah.

*yawnz*

Sleepy la.. I cant concentrate on the report I'm doing..
I just wish for a cozy bed, cozy pillows, and juz snuggle under my blankie in this cool cool weather..

Toodlez.

I really like the lyrics.. =)
For those moving on with their life.. here's one inspirational song.. pick up the broken pieces and mend it back to a better future..
Enjoy the song..

YesterDay..
I just can’t believe you’re gone
Still waiting for morning to come
Wanna see if the sun will rise even without you by my side
When we have so much in store tell me what it is I’m reaching for
When we’re through building memories I’ll hold yesterday in my heart
In my heart

Chorus
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made
They can take the music that we’ll never play
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away
But they can never have yesterday
They can take the future that we’ll never know
They can take the places that we said we would go
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away
But they can never have yesterday

You always used to say I should be thankful for every day
Heaven knows what the future holds or at least how the story goes
(But I never believed them till now)
I know I’ll see you again I’m sure no it’s not selfish to ask for more
One more night one more day
One more smile on your face but they can’t take yesterday

Chorus

I thought our days would last forever
(But it wasn’t our destiny)
‘Cause in my mind we had so much time
But I was so wrong
Now I can believe that I can still find the strength in the moments we made
I’m looking back on yesterday

Chorus

All the broken dreams take everything
But they can never have yesterday

Sumtimes the rain can juz bring me down..
But the rain can also cheer me up..

Becoz of the rain I almost got disappointed not getting to watch movie with my Baby..
Yesterday had a movie date with my dearest Baby..movie which was postponed due to rain..
We almost cancelled the plan again last nite..
But I missed him.. =(

So disappointedly took the train home.. and called Baby.. "TAK HUJAN!!"

Hehe..and we decided to catch it at PS. Took cab to his crib.. and waited fer him. Mak oi.. siap macam anak dara.. waduh..
Wangi2.. hehe.

Then rode off to town.. It was drizzling in the midst of PIE..
Nevertheless, we rode on..

Luckily town area was clear of rain...
Purchased tix and had dinner at Mos Burger..
Al-maklum.. only japanese food allowed for Baby.. wakakakak.

We had a talk after the movie.. Juz the two of us..
We talked about .. our tiffz..
Trust and our progress in the rship..
And I noe I dun wanna lose my love this time..
I learnt alot..
Even tho we had our differences.. I am thankful that he has a responsible adult mind..
And I love him to bits..
Just feel like snuggling up with him everyday..
And every single time I'm out with him, I dun want the day to end..
He has bring back the smile that I hide in me..
He can make me forget my worries everytime being with him..
And he accepts me fer who I am..

Rusydi darling.. U're my warrior, my love, my sweet surrender.. Aishi-teru Didi San.. =P




I juz cant help it..

Love does make u smile huh..

here's more.. my Glory days.. with my girls.. punkz and skins unite.. now everyone of us have moved on to different ways.. semua dah grow up and makin lawa.. Miss those days where I dun need to worry bout money or work.. always going to gigs and doing stupid things..
But end of the day we all had fun...



And here's during my short hair days.. with my old matairz.. kekeek, Kidding la.. that's the band Pug Jelly which is now the so-called Saw Loser.. Met them at Baybeats.. Cant remem which year.. But I remembered it's my first Baybeats Gig.. =)
Haiz.. miss those punky days..
Now dah kakak2 ...ahakz..

I dun wanna grow old ley... =(

And, let's play a game of Spot The Difference.. wakaka
Yeah yeah dat's me.. back in 2003 and now 2008.. 5 years brought alot of difference to me..
Hehe.. the difference is, I'm fatter than last time..
And I'm trying my best to get that old figure back.. where I can still wear short skirts with no worries..

And my Baby said.. "B, if I manage to reduce 15kilos out of your current weight now, I'll be the happiest guy ever.." but he's still happy the way I am now.. but I wish I'm slimmer..

Anyone wanna hit the gym with me?? =P

Hehe.. That's all folks..

=)

is it gonna be over??

=(

it was a wet wet wet weekend huh..
Friday was stay home nite after werk.. since it was raining heavily..
Didnt go out since Baby wasn't feeling well..
So I had a good rest zzzzzzz all the way hehe..

Wasnt working on Sat.. due to switching duties..
Soo woke up like around 11am..(apo nyer anak dara??!!) ahaha..
Eat nasi lemak.. and sleep again..
I sooo much wanted to go out with Baby but it was raining heavily again..
It didn't stop at all.. And I wasss sooo sad I cudnt catch the fireworks with him..
Kinda upsetting..

But my aunt managed to bring us the whole family.. to catch it at One Fullerton..
It was really a great spot and the view was so beautiful..
The sparks were just on top of my head. hee =)
My youngest sister Shakira.. was her first time seeing it live.
She was soo scared of the sounds until she almost wet her pants..

Funny kid..
And my arms were crampy due to the long duration of the firewerks..
But overall it was pretty..

Later on drove up to West Coast Park Mac'z to get our late dinner..
cheeseburger for me and the kids.. hehe such a long time since I had one...
And headed home after full tummies..

Pics will be uploaded..

Sunday.. woke up late.. with the sound of rain again..
Baby's fren sis got married but I did not attend the wedding due to my unwell body..
Maybe cuz I was caught in the rain during the fireworks last nite..

I slept the whole noon and was a bout to eat .. wen Baby called the very last minute askign me to get ready..
Mind me.. havent even bathe and iron my clothes..
The very LAST MINUTE he said we're going out and u're coming.. his Bestie's driving ..
Parked his bike at his bestie's house and soon both of them had to wait for me in the car to get ready..

Wakaka.. Haahah.. I was running mad.. rushing here and there..

And i wore sooooo slack.. (not suitable for wedding)..
and Baby didnt told me theyre going back to the wedding first before going out..
Haiyoz..

But it was fine with me.. everything went well.. =)

Headed to Vivo after tat.. fetched one of his frens..
I felt like vomitting.. and Baby was so nice to go up to his house just to take medication for me.. Thanks alot Baby..

Watched "Anak Halal" in the car.. nice movie.. especially got Maya Karin.. pretty woman.

Despite me sick, I still followed Baby and frens to Vivo..
Window shopped.. and I tink I found things that I'm gonna buy..
Headed home early.. and doze off immediately after resting my head on my pillow..

Today..
My monday blues at werk..as per normal.
But my mood wasnt dat bad, and I decided to wear a skirt to werk today..
Hehe..

I gotta tahan the week ahead with werk..tho im getting bored of it oredy..

Toodlez..=)

A day of no work..rest since I wasnt feeling well..
But met with Baby and Bestie in the evening..
Bestie ku yang satu tu.. ahahahha NAK MAKAN SUSHI..

So we decided to have dinner at our normal Sakae hangout..
While waiting fer Bestie.. me and Baby walked around Vivo ..
So many things caught my eye but I noe I cant spend much.. Cuz there's so many things I need to think of.
We soooooooo love the latest Diesel Men & Ladies perfume.. I sprayed on my wrist and even i washed my hands lots of time due to visit toilet.. the smell is still there..

But nvm, wait for my Dior Addict 2 to finish then I can get another perfume.. keke.

After dinner chilled with my Bestie and Baby..
I'm sooo glad that at least she n Baby can communicate well..
It's always been a dream come true to have a bf who can respect my friends..
Cuz past has it that none cud get along with her well.
And thanks to the connection we had.. sooo cant wait for JB..
Miss hanging out with Bestie till late morning..
Hehe those were the times.

Today and tomorrow is the fireworks fest..
I soo wanna see those beautiful firewerks .
I still remembered last yr's firewerks.. which almost brought tears to my eyes..
Once in awhile u have ur loved one beside you and watching those sparks.. juz bring the love closer..
But that's just plain memories now.. Memories that sumhow I must forced myself to forget.

Dunno if Baby wanna go or not..
Confirm jam lahh..

See la how..

Hungry lakkk..

Toodlez..

see how bored I am..
i can still do this while i do my data entry..
sorry cuz so random.
nothing to blog kekeke.

=P

Ngantoooooooooookk.. Schleeeeepyyyyy... Ugh.

Went home late last nite.. 1am and just not our luck..
TP stopped us.. well.. the rest of the story I dunch noe ..hehe.
Tulah corner baring lagik.. hehe..

Chilled with my Baby n his fren at BP...dok at kedai kopi like wakangz..
Then made our way to Party World Taman Jurong and sing our hearts out.
Tat was my very first time karaoke-ing with Baby.. I fell in love with his singing.. his husky voice .. i loike..
All da way Dangdut ..kekeke..

Bestie, biler nk karaoke lagi??? kekeke

I'm sooo bored..
Today miting my Baby again... Hehe tinggal dekat pon I feel he's far.. =)
How love brought me wonders so much..
Well..

Toodlez.

LoVe SoNg - 311

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am home again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again

However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again

However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you

===<< For My BabY >>===
the only way fer me to think of him every nite is by this song..
a very relaxed chill song.. bit of ska rhythms..
a song tat my Baby sang to me before I flew to Bangkok..
and brought tears..
and every nite away from him.. I cud only listen to this and smile..

and i still listen to it.. if i had a tiff with him..
sumtimes its really a sweet feeling to fall in love once again..
and this time.. I really felt appreciated by what he's always did fer me..
at first, I wasnt so confident over the r'ship with him ..
but now slowly Alhamdulilah.. i'm convinced by him.

Bestie, thanks eh.. u always support me in whatever i do..
Cant wait to hangout with u again..
And best of all I cant wait to see u pregnant..!!! LoLx =P

And yeah. I bumped into one of my pri sch mates here.. Thanks to Multiply.. I hope to see more.. =)

More work to do fer now..
Toodlez.

I was all smiling after a late morning talk with my Baby..
I actually slept early last nite.. 11pm sleep already..
I was doing editing till I doze off with the lappy... imagine when I woke up, startled my arms was kinda warm from the lappy heat.. hehe.. mampos ingatkan pelok bantal wakakakak.

So, I shut down my lappy and snuggled off to la-la land..
And surprisingly.. I received an sms from my Baby who was still at his werkplace..
"Miss you baby.."

Hehe.. I was all smiling.. And I juz continued my sleep..
And 3am.. Baby called me..
Haiyohhhhh.. mcm ne lah ku ni asik kurang tido.????
So we talked abit.. and from beeing tooo sleepy.. I became too freshh..
And I overslept this morning.. ahahahaha..

Wakakaka.. and so, I dunno why I even bothered to type all thesehttp://darktearz.multiply.com/
Maybe I felt so happy that at least someone is missing me..
Anyone else out there misses me?????

Ape lagik comment lar.. kekek.

And I truly miss him.. Due to his night shift werking hours.. we rarely meet..
This tests my perseverance, understanding and trust alot..
Which is very important for a r'ship..

Well..
Juz looking forward to see him again.. =(

Toodlez

I was busy doing touchups on Bestie's wedding photos and I managed to give time fer myself to do a little bit of editing for my own pic..

Suddenly felt like doing dark emo editz.. keke.

This is how it turned out..

Juz playing around with the applications and tadaaaaa !!

I shall do more.. I feel like goin in photography but it's an expensive hobby..
What do you think?

I was really inspired to try on photography after looking at how my photographer frenz did their piece which is sooo awesome..

Hmm.. maybe when I really am stable and I feel that I'm ready .. I shall go deeper in photography.. For now let me get the hang of editing ..kekekeke..

Haiz.. I feel like working at home sia.. sit in front of the lappy and just do designing works..
Haha pemalas..

Okielah back to work..

Toodlez

in relationships.. its always been about..giving time for our frens.
for example, as the gf, yes you have to mingle with her bf's frens..
but sumtimes it happens that the girl always gives in.. and the bf can't get along with her group of friends..

I noe some may agree with me.

As for me I have no problem mingling around.. but to the extend tat only I have to do my part..and where's ur part???
And why wouldnt you wanna mingle with my friends?

Haiz.

Normal things that we argue each day insya Allah will keep us getting better.
I noe when I smsed you harshly.. all I cud think of after dat is... y did I do such things?
And I juz feel like hugging u and cry on ur shoulders..

I wish to see the fireworks sooo much tomorow..
22-23 August also got Fireworks Fest.. do catch it ya..
And I wish to see my Baby soo much.

Off to meet Ida n Riz today..
Been a long long time since I met with Rizad..
Macam ner agaknyer dier tu..

Cant wait to meet Baby tomorrow..
Escort again..
And I need to find a red top fer tat.. National Day mah..

Gtg ..Toodlez

I noe i might sound giler but I'm missing my darling boyfriend oredy..
Padahal we juz had his belated b'day dinner yesterday..

Before that got myself an EVO helmet at Ah Boy's which caused me like 70 buckeroos.. ahah
Since.. my dad's helmet is soooo freaking loose. I tot I shall get myself one..
And now no need to pinjam oredy..hehe..

And I was so so happy to see Baby wearing the b'day gift I bought him..
Yah the forever Redbull fan.. so got him the PUMA Torro Roso Redbull top.. which looks juz perfect on him..


And for the first time he fetched me from werk at Pandan.. kekeke..
Sweet of him.. I appreciate it alot Baby.. Muackz. Cian dier lagik sikit sesat..

Treated him my promise.. to Sakae Sushi..
And since it's been a long time since I had sushi..we decided to eat at Harbourfront's outlet..
Kind of my fave outlet..
After dinner took some fresh breeze outside ViVo.. =)

I'm so glad up to this day.. we managed to go along fine.. tho thru ups and downs and being away from ya.. it tested us alot..

I love u, Baby..

Toodlez..

I noe this is bit late but ..hahaha juz read lah..

Before flying off.. spent whole night with my Baby.. juz watching planes fly near the Changi airbase I think..
Dat's when I felt so half-hearted to leave my Baby..hehe and at the same time so excited to get to Bangkok.

Got my bagpack packed the day before so I was much prepared and no hassle..
Baby decided to send me to the airport so I had to cancel off hangin out with the rest at Simpang Bedokz.. Lucky my Baby send, if not cab fare mampos.. haiz.. ahahaha.

So we headed to Changi Village fer our late supper. A not so nice meal.. which I did not even finish.. And plus bumped into sumone I didnt wana bump at the food centre itself. Haiz..
Why must I bumped into him sia??

After dat we headed off to see flights landing ahaha.. smpai tertido.. juz to pass time .. cuz I had to be at the terminal by 4.. That's when I realise I'm gonna be bit far from him and gonna miss him loads..

He waited till I checked in and off I go to the shopping paradise..

Mind me I was abit jakonz since it was my 1st time boarding a plane.. kekeeke..
I heard of so many stories tat bit scary when flight taking off..
But when I experienced it myself.. it was total fun..
Cume telinga pressure je ah babe..

Once touchdown at Bangkok we headed for the airport transfer to send us to our hotel..
We didnt even rest..
We changed and off to the streets we go hunting fer MAKAN.. hahahahaha.

Haiz so much to tell but I dunch wana bore u all ahahah..

Juz tips to those going Bangkok soon..

1) Must go Chatuchak if ur trip is on the weekend.
2) No need to go Tiger Show oso can.. waste money.. cuz 500baht u can buy loads of stuffz.
3) MBK fer ladies.. go and shop fer lingerie items.. CHEAP.
4) Arab St @ Sukhumvit Rd for some HALAL food and shisha..
5) DO NOT EAT THE ICE CREAM WITH MILK on the streets. cuz dat caused me FOOD POISONING for the nite.. Haiz
6) Always bring medicated oil with you..

Haha some important tips kekekeek..

And yes, I had food poisoning there and missed a night of jalan-jalan.
But Alhamdulilah I recovered the next morning.. thanks the the medicines that my mum asked me to bring. It helped alot.

Bought so many items..mostly for my Baby since it was his bday when I returned Singapore..

Overall..I enjoyed my first trip.. And next am waiting for Bali.. kekekek insya Allah.

My mum wants to go Bangkok too.. ahahha tgula Ma adek2 da besar then can go wakakakak..

Toodlez.