This is the start to a new BEGINNING..;

♥Friday, October 31, 2008

the new enviro

I've been a very good gerl this days..
not surfing the net while doing work..
and shaking my leg in the office or either read my novel..

hehe not coz i purposely do it..
but cuz there's no connection.. and my werk needs the internet to check on all the emails and complaints..
hehe.
but soooo the very bored.
and i still feel my new environment is sooo weird..
haiz like no privacy at all..

but when im home i dun even have time to surf the net.
it's either im LAZY or went home too late to even switch it on..

and did I tell you my laptop crashed..and not juz crash..
but the hard disk totally GONE.. hurhur..

if i wana get a new one it'll cost me $300-$500 .. mite as well I get a new laptop seh..
haiz.. dunno wat's dad gonna do about it.
but i kinda had my eyes on the ACER small notebk only $799 hehe..
see how la either i get my own or dad'll buy..

but dun think i buy la cuz i have to save up fer more important things..

well.. klah till here then..

anyone watched The Coffin oredy?? any reviews???

=) Tata

But I don't care what they say @ 4:09 PM

♥Monday, October 27, 2008

sense of boredom..

sleepy..
lazing at home.. bored lak.
my family out to Plaza Singapura....

sooo.. now im like left with dunno what to do..
TV boring.
Net boring..

I wanna go out .. juz indulge on sumting..
I want chocolate cake..
I want sushi..
I want to eat la.. hell yeah.. hehehee.

tomorrow, will be back to my boring office again..
with no internet connection.. cant even do my werk..
so all i did in the office was sketching, and eat.. ahhahaha.

haiz.. i tink i better go to sleep now.. so bored.

urghh.

But I don't care what they say @ 12:50 PM

♥Sunday, October 26, 2008

u are the music in me..

got home this noon..
Spent whole Sat cum Sunday with Baby..
And finally got to eat Popeye's at T1.. for supper ..
Been a long time since I had my hands on the fries and milk biscuit..
It was Baby's first time eating there and I'm glad he enjoyed it alot..

Had our breakfast at Al-Azhar's today.. cuz suddenly was craving for prata ..kekeke..

Dah kenyang.. ngantok.. pe lagi.. balik ruma tdo ah.. keke.

Friday after werk was spent mini shopping with Baby..
Chilled bit at town.. and last min planz..
Karaoke in the wee hours.. hehe .. Ni ah Bestie ku yg ngidam nk nyanyi..
Her baby really not tired.. asik nak nyanyi ajer.. kekekeke.
Enjoyed my time with Baby, Bestie & hubz and Baby's frens..

Tomorrow Deepavali..
Holiday.. which means sleep..
No plans of going out so I'll stay home..
And to all of fellow Indian frens & readers.. Happy Deepavali to u..

Tues is Baby's first day of his new job..
All de best.. and i'll have to adapt to his shift hours.. soon.
Nevertheless, nothing will bring me down.
Love him to bits..

Wanna watch High Sch Musical 2 now..
hehe..

But I don't care what they say @ 3:17 PM

♥Friday, October 24, 2008

boring nyer tkde net..

*SOBzzz*

no INTERNET in my office..
And i've got like not much to do ever since the renovation started.
Ive finished packing..
and ive got no mood to do any werk..

To Fatin,
Get well soon ya babe..
Cya at Pandan soon aite..

And.. I need to go to the beach..
But the weather is like so wet wet wet these days..

Haiz i juz need to get my mind off work..
Nak gi batam.. fulus nya nggak ada ..

Kekekeke.
Well gotta go back to my boring comp now.

Dun miss me.. =)

But I don't care what they say @ 5:37 AM

♥Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Sepang & KL Trip 19-20 Oct 08

soooooooo tired la..
guess wat??juz got home last nite... time checked almost 12am..
reached singapore around 10plus..chilled bit before I got on the bus home..

19 Oct 08 - Sunday
went to Sepang Race on the 19th. didnt sleep the whole nite.. Soo I cud only sleep in the flight..We took AirAsia.. from Senai Airport.. It wasss sooo tiring but I sure had fun with the guys and gerls..Crazy group...U go ..Team Banzai !!!
And Sepang was phreaaaakkiinnnn HOT !!! And I warned u.. I had burnts..Hehe..But my Mr R made my day.. hehehe Mr Rossi won the GP race.. And I was sitting at the grand stand.. so had a gd view of him..=)
Overall fun fun fun..After that took a bus to KL Central.. And we walked all the way to our hotel which is near ChowKit..Once reached me and Baby dah flat.. !!!Flat teros.. shared the room with another couple.. Belom sempat hilang penat.. we all went clubbing at nite..But I had fun.. lagu best..And that's the first time I clubbed with my Baby.. hehehe Errr.. i tink i drink too much..Only those who were there with me noes wat happened.. =P

20 Oct 08 - Mon
The next day supposed to head to Genting.. Me, Baby and Fiq went to get our lunch.. while waiting fer the rest to siap..After eating.. poor Baby had food poisoning..So we stayed at the hotel the whole day.. layankan sakit dier..The rest went ahead with the Genting plan..It was raining heavily and we cud only go out ard later evening..Me and Baby did some shopping..Bought myself some toiletries and jeans..Not much to shop tho.. haha.Tukar duit byk.. tapi tk beli barang.. Haha...Went back to the hotel late.. lepakz..

21 Oct 08 - Tues
My last day in KL..But the rest going back the next day.. Only me Baby & Fiq.. went home today..Took the Aeroline Bus..Best.. service very good.. dah mcm duduk in the flight la.. ade org serve..Next time go KL I shall take that bus again.. =)Okielah that's all bout the trip..Wanna get some rest now..

Enjoy the picz http://darktearz.multiply.com/photos/album/52/19_Oct_Sepang_Race

KL pics http://darktearz.multiply.com/photos/album/53

But I don't care what they say @ 4:47 PM

♥Friday, October 17, 2008

semalaman disisi mu.. ceh :P

Mind me.. I feel like blogging in malay today..
Yg paham.. pahamkan.. yg tk paham, jangan macam paham...

Hehz

Semalaman, aku nyaris melangkah pergi..
Tahap kesabaran ku sudah jangkau yang paling atas..
Hanya tangisan yang dapat memahami ku..
Mengapa jadi begitu ..
Adakah aku terlalu mengikuti kata hatiku, atau ia sekadar satu ujian dari yang Maha Esa..

Satu ujian melawan ego masing-masing..
Menahan kata-kata marah..

Aku jadi bingung..
Aku buntu..

Hanya Tuhan sahaja yang tahu isi hatiku..

Arus hidup ini, tak selamanya indah..
Adakala berseri, adakala muram..
Penuh dengan dugaan..

Juz some thoughts I had yesterday...
I almost left sumone who loved me dearly..
But I noe in the end, I noe I can't live without him..
And he's a man who fulfilled his promises.
I realised when I hugged him yesterday on his bike, I noe that I wana keep hugging him and never let go..
Silently, I shed tears beneath the visor..
But the wind wipe it away...

And when he holds my hands, he'll surely give it a warm squeeze..
Which makes me all smiley..

I can see from his face, how he really wants me to be by his side always..
I've loved before..
But I've never felt loved like this from a man like you..

I juz dun wanna let go animore..
I noe I need you..
I noe U need me..
And the sacrifices that we have to make I hope will strengthen our bond..

Baby, I remember those words from u the first time ..
That it's gonna be hard but no matter wat we'll pull thru this together..
And insya Allah.. I'll always be by you.. =)

*sobz*

Sumtimes, a person does really love you...but some things will juz blind ur heart..
And u'll tend to follow ur ego..
I learnt not to take things forgranted and to always be thankful with wat God's given you.

:::: BaBy, I noe u'll read this.. in years to come, I still wanna be the one hugging you, kissing ur hand, comb ur hair, massage ur shoulders when ur tired, gaze ur eyes and hold ur hands.. Let's grow old together.. =) ::::

But I don't care what they say @ 7:49 AM

♥Wednesday, October 15, 2008

date with a hunk

hehe yeah..
was out with a hunk..
he called himself a "HuNK"
hehe.. and indeed with tat shirt on.. he does look like a hunk..
and those Vans shoes he bought from Japan.. Singapore takda ahhh.. kekeke..
he does melt me... =)

ishhhh no no .. I didnt go out with another guy or wat .. and no I wont.. of coz not.
and the hunk is of coz my Baby..
hehe..
love the chest.. =)
and he declared himself a hunk after viewing himself in the mirror.
I was laughing my ass off.. but then look again.. ya la...he is hunky..

Those eyes, smile, body.. and my fave arms..which can strongly carry me..
Yea surprisingly he can carry me..

And Baby..
Thanks for spending ur time with me last nite..
And a date at Arnold's...
Next I promise u... I bring u to Popeye's..
Errr actually u, have to ride me to Popeye's kekekekekeke..

Or if anyone out there driving to Popeye's jgn lupe ajak aku.. kekekeke.
Bestie, amcm??
Drive to Airport.. hehe suro laki kau..
Maybe we shud all go out go bowling ke tgk wayang ke.. kekekekeke..

I love it when u wear ur speckiez... =)

K before i go on more mushy mushy.. I'd better stop.
Starting to miss him, padahal smlm aru jumpe.. Lol.

Cant wait fer this Sunday..
Nak mit my Mr R..
No not Mr Rusydi.. but Mr Rossi.. hehehehe if tk Rossi, Hayden pon leh lah.. kekekeke.

Ciaoz

But I don't care what they say @ 6:09 AM

♥Tuesday, October 14, 2008

sneezy day..

juz not my day today..
been sneezing and coughing like mad in the office..
and my throat sored .. eat lunch oso like cannot swallow.. haiz..

was on MC yesterday due to a heaty fever..
which started off with a flu...

The flu started on Sun while raya-ing with Baby..

my weekends was a blissful one..
spent the Sat after work raya-ing Baby frens..
and first house was Bestie's ..
hehe..
juz the 6 of us.. plus 1 who joined us later..
overall.. pure fun.
cudnt come to Kak Dee's house since not much time..
picz taken. uploadz later ya.

Sunday was spent visiting my frens house with juz Baby..
Da mcm pengantin jalan berdua je..ehehe.. dgn samping dier.. =P
Went to Ida's house & Adq Ruq at Bedok..
And off back to Westside to Bestie's uncle house and Baby's frens house..
And yes.. finally meet Baby's mum.. nervous giler seh..
But we managed to had a little chit chat..
His frens left earlier while I'm in the toilet..
Isshhh macam sabo sehh.. kuar toilet tgk tgl aku sorang ajer..
AHahaha ape lagik kene interview la..
Lolz.

Baby send me off home.. with me caught with the flu..
And next thing I noe, Mon I was flat in bed with a high temperature..
Ishhh demam cuz nervous sgt.. ahaha.

Back to office with piles of work and letters to disseminate..
Right now theyre having a meeting outside my room..
Haiz.. bored.

Kk gotta do more werk now before I go back..

Ciao Romanoz.. =)

But I don't care what they say @ 12:28 PM

♥Friday, October 10, 2008

No More MSN =(

wat ?! No more msn???

Actually havent been msn-ing much also in the office..
The new office in Pandan will be up soon..
Haiz alot of dust around .. ahhh-chooooo.

And worse... No MSN is allowed.
So I've got to endure..

And I think alot of changes will happen and I dunno if I can tahan or not..
God noes..

Well.. on a happier note..
Baby made my day yesterday..
And he look sooo charmingly handsome with specs..
I've always love guys who put on specs. Cute.
And he really look like a decent chinese boy...

And I'm happy today get to meet my darling Bestie.. fer dinner..

And and and.. erm erm erm...
I suddenly miss eating paddlepop ice cweam.. tee hee

But I don't care what they say @ 12:21 PM

♥Thursday, October 09, 2008

Pedi..pedi...

today mood bagus..
i wore a skirt to work..
hehe =)
i love the skirt.. tight.. ahahha feeling feeling sexy gitu loh..

Erm ermz..
Office kecoh sikit cuz my boss came back from his leaves.."
Nonstop mulot dier dadadadadaadadaadadada..
Makin aku type laju makin laju mulot dier menyenyeh ahahaha..

And suddenly Ive got so much to do.. But sempat blogging kekeke.

Yesterday went fer my appointment..
Feel the current & vibrations again on my tummy and thighs..
Now I know the machine is called VP Complex..
Hehe.
I was advised again to cut down on my food intake hehz =P
Right after my session, I drank a can of Carrot Juice.

Dinner and off I went home..

"I still cant believed the things I said to you. I noe its hurtful. I noe I sucked in this..
I am sorry.. sorry fer being the self-centered me.. But whatever it is, I wont abide ur love..
Ur love has been a precious gift from God.. Thanks for being you, dear."

I need a PEDI..
I mean pedicure.. ahaha mcm PADI lak..
I was in the ladies, when I look down at my feet.. my nails..
Gosh, I need to soak my feet in a steamy foot bath, have some foot massage and trim the nails.
Anione wanna do pedi with me?
Cuz its my FIRST time lahh.. hehz

Last but not least..
Ta-ta.. :p

But I don't care what they say @ 7:10 AM

♥Wednesday, October 08, 2008

i juz wanna zzzz

ish bored la..
sleepy sumore..

what shud I do?

I cant stand it..

sooooo slack la today..

oh ya Fatin.. today ur old boss came down here..
he came in my office and I was like toking to uncle..
he waited near my table..when I didnt acknowledge his presence ahahahaa..
I juz say "ehhh hi.. (blank look) kekekkeekekee.

ughz..

but the new HR lady the one replaced Kak D.. seems nice.. =)
macam me-fe-la-fa-yu-fu ehhh..

aniwaes..
really cannot tahan la my eyes..

Cant wait fer diz Sat... Meet the parents session.. heehee ..
Nervous liao..

Aiyah going to rain seh.
Again ???
Aww man.....

Anyhooos.. I miss the darling boyfren..and the darling smile..
And the darling hugz.. and the the the the the ....dot dot dot wakakaka..
(Ape aje yg korang pikir ehkz??) lol.

But I don't care what they say @ 11:22 AM

♥

Tuhan menentukan..

today will be going fer my appointment..
errkkzz havent been following the diet given seh..
since raya started.. I gobbled everything I loike..
But at least better la I dun feel so fat now..

But then felt like buying those MeritPlus SLimming capsules and consume them once again..
Cuz it did work last time when I took those..
Hmm..

My plan to go to the gym yesterday TAK JADIK lagik...
Instead.. Baby waited for me at my block and off we went to Mr Teh Tarik JWest for dinner..
Terasa macam lapar gitu.. cuz the nite before I did not have my dinner..
Got myself Ayam Penyet instead...=)
Chilled fer awhile and off we went to his bestie's house..
3 of us chilled at Jurong Hill..
Me and Baby.. talked bout so many things..
What I loike about him, is that whenever he talks.. I can see his maturity..
The way he sees things, sometimes is much more mature than how I am..

I still feel I'm a kid inside my adult self..
I feel like going to school again and dun wanna work anymore..
But I want money at the same time hehehe..

I have decided..
And this decisions insya Allah must happen..
If not biler lagik sehh..

The things I am trying my best to make it happen before I turn 28 :

1) My Driving License
2) Diploma in Business Studies
3) My own business - cehh.. Bestie ur the only person I trust to do this together..
4) The Engagement & Marriage - insya Allah with the one I love..=)

Tapi I can only plan.. Tapi Tuhan yang tentukan..
But still I hope my efforts wont go to a waste.

Baby, if ur reading this..
I still remem our promise .. to go thru anything thick and thin..
And with u by my side.. insya Allah I'll make it happen. Amin.

Bestie.. my another plan is to....
One fine day when I have a child..
Mane tahu jodoh anak kite berdua.. cehhhh jauh seh fid pikir..
Kite berbesan la gerl..

Hehz.

That's all folks.

But I don't care what they say @ 5:01 AM

♥Monday, October 06, 2008

crashed and burnt..

Laptop...crashed.
It kept prompting the "Start Windows Normally" message but never start at all..
and with regret.. I did not save a single thing in my laptop..
And that includes picz from year 2006..
Maybe its a gud thing all gone la..
Deleted memories...

Luckily I still havent deleted some pics from my thumbdrive and camera..

Heard news bout that "guy"..
But I shall not say much..
I dun even remember how he looks like anymore..
No hatred or grudges but then they hate me so what can I do rite..

Syukur Alhamdulilah.. for Baby..
Finally he managed to get the post he wanted for his new job.
I am soo happy for him..
Even tho I know time will be less spent with him, but its ok cuz I noe at the end of the day.. understanding and trusting him will benefit us in the near future.. insya Allah..

We kinda shopped yesterday at town..
But not much la..
Didnt have any mood to go raya so we both headed to town.. for makan and some shopping.
Met up with Iqah n bf.. so four of us headed to Ayam Bakar Ojolali (I think)..
My first time eating there.. and Baby decided next time we shall eat there again..
I loike my Grilled Snapper set.. yum yum.
Kenyang dokz..

Next stop.. MeLaLaKz Session at Ming Cash Studio..
Been mths since I last melalak..
And hidung tersumbat pon jalan terus jugak..
Lagu raya pon kite sing sing.. ahakz..
It was fun..
First time really went out with them..
And the Secret Recipe Oreo Cheesecake is YummeHH..
But I still love the chocolatey one...

will put photos up.. =)

Overall weekend was great..
With family and Baby..

Dunno when will go out raya-ing with frens..
And cant wait for 19th.. Sepang Race..
Rossi here I come..

Errrk..

But I don't care what they say @ 7:58 AM

♥Friday, October 03, 2008

cut the BANGS..

this is the funny me..
ppl do the hair before raya..
but i did mine on the 2nd day of raya which is yesterday..kekee.
not exactly me only but my sister too..

and im not sooo happy with the outcome.
I dyed and highlight my hair but it seems like my hair still black lah..
And I paid for $108.. siao.

And and and.. I regretted.. I shud have chose the lightest color for the dye and blond strips for the highlights seh.. Haiz..
My dyed color is loike normal brown which can only be seen under the sun and the hlights like bit red2.. but CANNoT see lah..
Kentotz tol.. waste money..
Dun wana go that shop anymore..

Can sumone pls advise me on the colors...

Help !!!

But I love my bangs.. got it trimmed.
Maybe my mistake la choose wrong color..
If u all noe of any good salon doin good hair coloring ..
Tell me bout it..

I ammm sooooo BORED of black hair.. sheesh.

I love my sis curls tho.
Perming outcome is always pretty.. especially the fresh curls..
But to manage it ..makkk oi.. Been there done dat..

And pls tell me.. Shud I go bleach my hair blond or wat.. ??

Tell me, tell me.. I need ur opinionz peeparl..

Ciaoz..

P/S: I'm lovin my bangs.. and cant wait to mit my BaBy..

But I don't care what they say @ 4:47 AM

♥Thursday, October 02, 2008

di hari raya...

Selamat Hari Raya to all of you... Muslimin dan Muslimat..

The day which meant alot to me..
First cuz, I still get to celebrate with my family..
Even tho I'm always like being rude and stubborn to the family..
In the end.. I still love them all.
Love my sisters.. even tho I dun show much to them..
Love my mum, even at times I oways disobey her rules..
Love my dad, even at times I oways had freq late nites quarrels with him..
We're still family at the end of the day.

And also, this year Raya is special for me in a way.
Welcome my new baby cuzin in the Ismail family.. Baby Rohit Armani.
The sweetest boy ever, which really resembles my late baby bro, Shakir.
I can't stop kissing him..
Dukung taknak lepas lah... kekeke.

And also this year raya.. in the first place I was thinking if this year I might spend it alone.
Single la kononnyer..
But no.. cuz sumone special captured my heart..
And so this year is me and Baby's first Raya together..
He's all sooo excited bout it cuz he never had a gf before during raya.
I love him to bits la..

Malam raya.. I actually wanted to go to Geylang with Baby after kenduri raya..
But then.. it kept raining.. and raining..
And tat point of time I wished I'm driving.
Hehe.
Ntah biler lah aku nak pegang tu steering wheel..
Lol.

Night of Hari Raya.. recited doa fer the late ones who have passed on ..
Sayu gitu..
And I fell asleep while watching Sinar Lebaran..
Haha.
The tired me.

Well..
Picz to be uploaded soon.
Malas lak nk upload heheh.

And to all my frens and fellow readers out here..
Would like to wish all of u Salam Lebaran..
If I've ever hurt ur feelings thru mouth or blog.. I seek for forgiveness.
Hope u all have a Happy Hari Raya with ur love ones..
Take Care..

But I don't care what they say @ 4:58 PM